The Universe


Fear is only an illusion. It is the illusion that creates the feeling of separateness – the false sense of isolation that exists only in your imagination.
–Jeraldine Sounders

We are only alone in our minds. In reality, we are each contributing necessary parts offering completion to the wholeness of the universe. Our very existence guarantees our equality, which, when fully understood, eases our fears. We have no reason to fear one another’s presence, or to fear new situations when we realize that all of us are on equal footing. No one’s talents are of greater value than our own, and each of us is talented in ways exactly appropriate to our circumstances.


As We Understand Him


My friend suggested what then seemed a novel idea … “Why don’t you choose your own conception of God?” That statement hit me hard. It melted the icy intellectual mountain in whose shadow I had lived and shivered many years. I stood in the sunlight at last. It was only a matter of being willing to believe in a Power greater than myself. Nothing more was required of me to make my beginning.

I remember the times I looked up into the sky and reflected on who started it all, and how. When I came to A.A., an understanding of some description of the spiritual dimension became a necessary adjunct to a stable sobriety. After reading a variety of versions, including the scientific, of a great explosion, I went for simplicity and made the God of my understanding the Great Power that made the explosion possible. With the vastness of the universe under His command, He would, no doubt, be able to guide my thinking and actions if I was prepared to accept His guidance. But I could not expect help if I turned my back on that help and went my own way. I became willing to believe and I have had 26 years of stable and satisfying sobriety.

The Wholeness Of The Universe


Some people are brilliant when it comes to math, while others struggle with simple addition.  Some of us are talented when it comes to music, while others can’t sing a note.  Fear is the absence of faith. Faith that God is in charge of the World, and all who reside herein.  God has a plan, one that can be revealed in the events of my life, and one that is fully known only to God.  I place my will and my life in the care of my Higher Power, to do with as He directs, not always the way I think He should, but the way He does.  If God is in charge and I think He is, then I can relax and just concentrate on doing the next right thing.  I can release my fears and welcome my faith, in all I do, and all I am.

Pray, Wait, Repeat


Through the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous I have learned to trust the process.  I try to turn challenges into triumphs. I pray for patience, tolerance and above all serenity and peace of mind. I am waiting for my next step, my next change, my next healing.  God is taking His time with me, and I am learning to have patience with Him, with life and with myself.  I continue to put one foot in front of the other and do what is in front of me. I have learned through the Steps that good things can take time and that my direction and clarity come in God’s time, not my time.  Life still challenges me every day, as I continue to search for clarity of thought and deed.  I know my life is in the hands of the Master and I trust in God’s plan.

A Beginning


My life is so much better when I include God in it.  My faith in God is a decision I make each and every day.  Maybe that is what is meant by starting my day over. These writings are my daily connection to God and they are how I start my day.  They bring me to the many different books I use in my recovery, they bring me to another God-given day.  When I don’t write I am uncomfortable and uneasy, for the most part.  We each find our own path to recovery, mine has led me to A.A. and to my very own Higher Power.  He helps me to Keep It Simple and to live One Day at a Time.

Tonight’so Sunset


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As long as I held others responsible for my life, the longer my misery continued – as I had no control over the behavior of others, therefore change was impossible, or so I thought.  It was only when I accepted the responsibility for my life that true change was even a remote possibility.  I began to see that where my behavior was poor, my feelings were poor as well.  Conversely, when I behaved in a good way, I felt good.  I began to understand the connection between my behavior and my feelings.  I found that I actually had a choice in how I felt and could change those feelings through my behavior.  Turning my life over to the care of my Higher Power was a decision that led me to a higher path, one that enabled me to not only seek change but to achieve it.

The Consequences Of My Choices


I am responsible for me, I am responsible for my life, and I am responsible for my behavior – each and every day.  I know today that it’s my life, my choice, and I accept that.  I accept the consequences of my decisions, my choices, and my behavior.  My business ends at the end of my nose.  I work with others in the hopes of sharing my experience and strength but do not assume to know what others should do, that is their choice, their decision, and their business.  I can only share what I have experienced. We are each unique and individual.  Others may choose a different path than the one I have.  The Program of A.A. can work in the lives of those who suffer from the disease of alcoholism, but how and when is as individual as we are.


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