What’s My Business

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Judgments are made, all the time. (Even comments here at This24-Lol) Sometimes, in the process of hearing another’s story, I think to myself “Well, I never did that.” But given enough time “out there” I have no doubt I would have reached the very bottom of the barrel. I was not above shortcomings and character defects, and by the time I got through working the Steps I had quite a list of behavioral “problems,” the least of which was gossiping. Talking about other members is not only discouraged but it goes against the very principles we are striving toward. Honesty, humility, and willingness to change, are just a few of the “essentials” I want in my “new” life. Positive action means taking the “higher path.” Whenever I take my “eyes” off of my behavior, I open myself to judgment and criticism. Who am I to judge another? I’m too busy clearing up the debris from my own past. I find that keeping my focus on my recovery is the best solution when there’s any question about judging others. My job is to stay sober and help others – period. No, I’m not perfect at this thing called recovery – but I work on it a day at a time!!
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The Big Empty

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If we really depended upon God, we couldn’t very well play God to our fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care.
– Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 116

Even after I had accepted a Higher Power, there were still times of uncertainty and confusion. I know today that my “emotional stability” comes to me one day at a time, It does me no good to rely on the hope of tomorrow, or the regrets of the past. My emotions, for the most part, are pretty “normal.” Before recovery my emotions were all over the place, one day up, the next day down and out. I am grateful for the stability that I have had since coming into the Program. At first I thought that I would be bored in recovery, but I have been anything but bored. I have had the experiences of wonderful trips, and visits to places I never thought I would see. I have developed friendships with people who I can socialize and can be a friend as well. Being around sober alcoholics has shown me that life can be enjoyable, fun and good; despite my disease. Being dependent upon God has relieved me of the burden of always thinking that I had to know everything and do everything. It feels good to sit back and see what God has in store for me. ❤
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Thy Will Be Done

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Not my will, but Thine, be done.

The quote talks about the courage it takes to risk letting go of my will, and the trust I need to Let Go and Let God. When I stopped long enough to take a good, hard look at my own life, I could see where my will had not gotten me where I wanted to be, or even close to it. The bottom line was that I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. I had to turn my will and my life over – every day, and sometimes several times during any given day. I was so used to expecting the worst in life, that it took a while to trust the process of recovery. One thing about trusting God – He is always there. It took a while for me to learn to trust the Program and to trust myself, once again. My faith in God was tested, and each and every time God came through. I simply had to stop “doing” and start letting my life unfold as God wills it. Faith works, recovery works, and the God of my understanding certainly works!!!
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Became Willing To…

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The longer I remain in the Program, the more willing I become to make amends to those I have harmed. It was not always an easy task, and facing those I had truly harmed took courage and a good, hard, honest look at my behavior towards others – and myself. I had to work at not beating myself up, and remind myself that I still had the opportunity to make amends. Then I had to let those negative feelings go as it would do no good to constantly berate myself . What was needed was the realization and acceptance of the love God had for me, in spite of my poor behaviors and misdeeds. If God can love me for who I am, then there is no reason why I should not love me, too. It makes me feel good when I am kind, generous, and responsible. Good behavior brings on good feelings, and good feelings encourage me to behave better towards others. Simply put: Improved behavior generates positive self-esteem.
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Character Defects And …..

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Today, I can claim my character defects without going completely to pieces. I know that through the recovery process I have made progress in my life. I know that having faith in the Program and in my Higher Power are the things that have enabled me to accept my part in my fallacies, and to know that help is always available. I have been liberated from the helpless condition I arrived in because I’m living the steps in my life. I work to ensure that even those “minor” flaws such as laziness, and self-righteousness don’t turn into the shortcomings and character defects of times past. I never have to drink again, and I never have to cheat and steal to make my life worth living. I can and do hold my head up high. I dare to look others in the eye, and I dare to walk into the rooms without a cloak of fear, anger or pride. Just for today I have been liberated from the heaviness of all those negative behaviors. Today I soar!!!
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Daily Actions

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I choose to have faith on a daily basis. I believe in the Spirit of the universe. I choose to believe. I see faith in action around the tables and in the rooms of A.A. I hear about faith in the shares and stories told by others in the Program. Faith is a choice I make every day. My life feels better when I choose to have faith. Sometimes, the very best I can do is – nothing. Letting go and letting God could be the best decision I make today. Just sitting back and waiting until the path is clear, the message is understood, until I feel strong as well as humble – these are things I can do. I need to allow God time to answer prayers, to gently lead me to the higher path, to discover the spirit within me – rather than rushing about trying desperately to find the “right” answer, the best solution for me – these are things I can do, these are things that work in my recovery. One Day At A Time!!!
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A Simple Reliance

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I trust in my faith – God leads me to a “higher” place – when I let Him. My past mistakes and failures are over, now I need to forgive myself for these “errors” and get on with living a life of faith and service to others. A.A. is called a “we” program for a reason – it helps us see beyond our own personal problems. Life is not always about me, me, me! By being of service to others, quite often I find solutions to my problems in the process of helping others. I need others in my life, and the Program certainly provides me the opportunity for that. Working with others helps both me and them. I have been a sponsor and quite often the “teacher” becomes the “student” when working the Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. In the process of helping others, I help myself. Faith in a Higher Power enables me to open my mind to the possibility of healing through spiritual guidelines. Anythings possible, right?
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