A lot of times I would really just rather go with my own conclusions on what I should or should not do. It is not that I don’t value others’ input, it is more that I don’t want to slow down long enough to discuss a situation with my sponsor or a friend in the Program. I just want to do something so I can satisfy the impulse to take action and “get it over with.” Also, when things are going well in my life, I start to feel omnipotent again, like my competence rating has gone up and I can be trusted to make my own decisions, because I’m so smart and all. Ironically, as soon as I take some half-baked action, I get the impulse to call around and see if everyone agrees it was the right thing to do in retrospect. As often as not, taking counsel ahead of time reveals that my original idea needs tweaking if not a different approach entirely. The attitudes necessary for me to stop, defer action and consult with my trusted advisors include humility, patience, calm, willingness, the desire for a beneficial outcome, and most of all, a dedication to the principles I have learned in AA. The rush to action is a race to nowhere. When I turn around to see how big a lead I have gained, there is nobody running the race with me. I have escaped nothing and achieved no advantage. Long-term sobriety seems to involve a very slow realization that there is virtually never a fuse burning on right action. If I invest the time on the front end, the results will save me a long road of backtracking.
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