Compulsivity and obsessive behaviors seem to be standards for me – before recovery. In recovery I am learning to control my behaviors – and therefore control my obsessive/compulsive behaviors. I have no doubt in my mind that I can succeed with the help of the Program and my Higher Power, God. It is much easier to do that with the help of friends in the Program, than it is to attempt by myself. I recognize my shortcomings and defects of character, and know that I will never be “perfect” when it comes to my “addictions.” I knew from a very early age that I was “addictive,” and therefore stayed away from drugs that I knew were addictive, as I seemed to know that it would be a losing battle. It helps when others talk about their issues relative to addiction, I can usually relate to their experiences and I learn much from them when it comes to the idea of “control.” I can recover from my addictions – all of them -by working the Steps, having faith in God, and believing that “in recovery, all things are possible.”

Photo Courtesy of MX
Photo Courtesy of MX

6 thoughts on “Obsessive/Compulsion

  1. Compulsive thoughts or really any thoughts must be replaced by something positive and creative for we will never be free of thinking, thanks be to God.

    It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe.
    My first sponsor told me there were two things to say about prayer and meditation: first, I had to start and second, I had to continue. When I came to A.A. my spiritual life was bankrupt; if I considered God at all, He was to be called upon only when my self-will was incapable of a task or when overwhelming fears had eroded my ego.
    Today I am grateful for a new life, one in which my prayers are those of thanksgiving. My prayer time is more for listening than for talking. I know today that if I cannot change the wind, I can adjust my sail. I know the difference between superstition and spirituality. I know there is a graceful way of being right, and many ways to be wrong.
    For a bit of time now I have been reflecting often about “my first thoughts”.
    It’s a fairly frequent occurrence that I have become conscious of my very first thoughts when I waken in the morning and I have come to believe that these are very special.
    I could comment on several of them but I usually just concentrate on the one that happened just this morning.

    This morning I woke with the thought; ‘blessings’.

    🙂 I am blessed! 🙂

  2. My friend Tim C told me early on that, at least for him, he was going to get high on something. It could either be drugs or alcohol, or on his recovery. Addictive personalities don’t change because we’re sober…just put a bag of Hershey kisses in front of me and I’ll demonstrate the truth of that. But the nature of my obsession or addiction can and must change. Most days, but not all, I want the nearness and warmth of my HP. I don’t slave after it in quite the same way I slaved for drugs and alcohol, but it’s small and growing. And all I must do is seek.

  3. Really my only power- to choose my next thought.
    So, in the morning if my thoughts wander in ways not particularly useful, I say the Lord’s Prayer, and recall a couple of B. B. from Chapter 6 that tend to stick with me:
    So, we ask God to direct our thinking….
    We alcoholics are undisciplined, so we let God discipline us…
    Then when my feet hit the deck, they start moving in the right direction.
    Blessings upon us all, indeed.

  4. In some ways my O/C behavior has been refocused into recovery, but that’s certainly an improvement.
    I think it’s good to be sober today.

  5. Kt , alcoholic, thanks for the share on compulsive behavior. I so relate to all that us said, I always do much more than ever necessary, moderation is something I think about more in recovery. For me I have to ask my hp for guidance and check my motives. When I want more than one of everything.

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