It’s Complex

The Fifth Step reads as follows “Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs.”  In reading the Big Book paragraph above it cites ” . . .the exact nature of our defects.”  So it can be surmised that my defects can be classified as those things that are wrong with me.  I struggled to define my character defects, until I spoke with my sponsor who helped me to clearly see what traits I had been harboring for some time, traits that were clearly not in my best interest.  Looking at the opposite behaviors I could see where my shortcomings were impacting my life – particularly when combined with King Alcohol.

I walk a different path today, I am grateful for the path that has brought me to where I am today.  Today I have a true sense of hope and faith.  Today I live my life one day at a time, and take my problems one at a time, as well.  I live and work this Program to the best of my ability. . . not always perfectly, and I thank God for that, as it would be impossible to live a life of perfection – but I can certainly make progress.  Progress, after all, is just another word for action, and action comes from a deep desire to change – and change I have.



5 thoughts on “It’s Complex

  1. December 14
    Grapevine Quote

    “Dr. Silkworth taught us how to till the black soil of hopelessness, out of which every single spiritual awakening in our fellowship has since flowered. In December 1934 this man of science had sat humbly by my bed following my own sudden and overwhelming spiritual experience, reassuring me: ‘No, Bill,’ he had said, ‘you are not hallucinating. Whatever you have got, you had better hang on to; it is so much better than what you had only an hour ago.’”
    AA Co-Founder, Bill W., August 1957
    “The Physicians,”
    The Language of the Heart
    Prayer for the Day

    I pray that I may keep this resting place where I can commune with God. I pray that I may find refreshment in meditation on the Eternal– 24 Hours a Day.
    A few decades ago I was attending a retreat in North Georgia and in a small group I shared my difficulty with prayer and meditation and a kind lady from South Carolina said, “Why don’t you just think about God?”
    That very night I tried it: “God- God- God- God- God…………..”
    No one in AA or anywhere else for that matter has ever denigrated me for any of my spiritual experiences. 🙂

  2. In the fifth step and following in doing The 10th step comes discernment.
    “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye.” — Antoine de Saint-Exupery

  3. The magic of a new day and a fresh mind. The morning peace, where once again, I am reminded that in in coming out of self, I can come into life.
    My God given choice again today- His way or my way. You guys have showed what happens with each.
    Blessings upon us all.

  4. Admitting the exact nature of my wrongs was hard but necessary for me to start to grow. I felt such relief. The compassion I was given led me to believe I was worthy of forgiveness.

  5. It was in the fifth step that I became convinced that change was needed, possible, and available to me through this process known as the steps.
    From my head to my heart, that greatest distance.

    “Stop thinking about what you’re thinking about and think about God.”

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