Admissions of Powerlessness

There was no doubt in my mind that I was powerless over alcohol, I only had to pick up a drink to reaffirm that.  Once started I totally lost control of stopping.  It was like someone else stepped in and took over my body, and I usually drank until I either passed out or the booze ran out – nine times out of ten I would pass out first.

Alcoholism has been defined as an allergy to the body and an obsession of the mind.  I find that to be true for me.  Alcohol affects me differently than it does those we call “normal.”  I named my first drink “More” because that is exactly what I wanted.  There are many differences between alcoholics, and while this is true, the real measure of being an alcoholic comes from the similarities we share with each other.  As a group we do not drink with any surety of what will happen to us in our drunken state. The obsession to drink is an ongoing dilemma that never completely goes away for me – but today it is tempered with the knowledge in the first Step, and this being a new year, what better place to start.  I am powerless over alcohol and my life had become unmanageable – this I know for sure!

Photo courtesy of MAGGS!!
Photo courtesy of MAGGS!!

 

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10 thoughts on “Admissions of Powerlessness

  1. 3
    January
    POWERLESS
    We admitted we were powerless over alcohol — that our lives had become unmanageable.
    — TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 21
    It is no coincidence that the very first Step mentions powerlessness: An admission of personal powerlessness over alcohol is a cornerstone of the foundation of recovery. I’ve learned that I do not have the power and control I once thought I had. I am powerless over what people think about me. I am powerless over having just missed the bus. I am powerless over how other people work (or don’t work) the Steps. But I’ve also learned I am not powerless over some things. I am not powerless over my attitudes. I am not powerless over negativity. I am not powerless over assuming responsibility for my own recovery. I have the power to exert a positive influence on myself, my loved ones, and the world in which I live.
    From the book Daily Reflections 🙂

    When I took a drink of liquor I had little or no control over how much I would drink, when I would drink or what would happen when I did drink.
    As the “excellent manager” I thought I was would never have allowed the obsessional thoughts of drinking alcohol to enter my mind.
    I can’t drink alcohol.
    Things happen in life which I don’t expect.

    • My management of these problems is exponentially improved.
      I don’t drink.
      With God’s help I meet life on life’s terms.

  2. I’ve learned that I do not have the power and control I once thought I had. I am powerless over what people think about me.
    In these two sentences I am always shocked that I can’t do something to control what people think about me. I always kept thinking if this or that happens it will be better.
    What a concept, I don’t have power over people places or things, just my attitude, my willingness and faith.

  3. Th e last time i drank was no fun at all after having a belly full of AA knowing I had to drive a few hours after a concert. You guys ruined my drinking after having only a few the guilt, fear and discomfort was overwhelming. I pulled over to sleep it off ina parking lot still wondering what would happen if a copper knocked on my window and asked what I was doing there where I did not belong. I think i drank 6 beers in 6 hours but I didn’t keep track of either and the uncertainty ruined whatever good feelings i had from the alcohol. Having to control my drinking was no fun which i have done but why bother if it’s no fun. I do not want to leave out that I could not with any reliability predict the outcome after that first drink. I don’t think i wanted to end up in jail or face down in a pile of puke which my dog had cleaned up most of. I highly recommend a dog if your gonna drink they can save from drowning in your puke or your tv dinner, sick but true! Your welcome for the visual aid(grin). After working a few simple steps I’m grateful i can serve someone other than myself.

    i sit here writing this while we’re getting our first snowfall in over a month and it’s beautiful. I hope and pray that all of you can find some comfort in the day. God bless!

  4. Always to be reminded of the basics – that I am powerless over alcohol and that I cannot control it. Grateful to be sober in 2015!

  5. Always good to be reminded of the basics – that I am powerless over alcohol and that I cannot control it. Grateful to be sober in 2015!

  6. I am powerless over most of the circumstances that come my way. Only over how I respond to these circumstances. I make choices in a split second that potentially can change the course of my life. Since my 1st thought is generally the wrong thought, I have to depend on the unlimited, timeless, supreme power,
    of the “One who has all power” to make good choices. Without this help, my best thinking only got me where I was from the start.
    Thanks for being here.

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