A New Path

It takes a concentrated effort for me to remain honest, I have to check myself constantly. Making myself “nicer” than I really am comes fairly easy to me. I want to seem nicer, kinder, more in tune with whomever I’m talking with, so I tend to omit certain things, while at the same time adding other things – both of which are really not true. I really want to be the person I project, but I quite often fall short of that goal. Most of the time I catch myself and correct the deception on the spot. But there are still other times when I let it be and tell myself it’s really a small lie and really doesn’t affect the real truth. I deceive myself into believing that my deception is a minor thing and therefore doesn’t count.

I am finding that I am not so different from others there. There seems to be a likeness, in many respects, to Alcoholics Anonymous. It seems to be inclusive, not exclusive. Different living arrangements are accepted. Different social status, or different beliefs – all seem to be accepted. Acceptance, for me, seems to be the key here, as I have always lived in the belief that I was not acceptable to others. I have been made to feel welcomed and accepted – and the most amazing part is that I don’t have to lie about anything. I am who I am – and that’s okay. I believe Honesty and Open Mindedness is an enhancement of my journey in recovery, and I believe it will lead me to the “Road of a Happy Destiny.”


8 thoughts on “A New Path

  1. Chapter 5
    Rarely have we seen a person fail who has
    thoroughly followed OUR PATH.

    Do the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous comprise our path?
    How do these spiritual exercises compare with other great guidelines?
    The broad acceptance of AA by our various churches and other civic organizations and institutions should speak well to that.
    When all else had failed me they gave me the Golden key.
    A gentle suggestion to pray every morning was begun.
    🙂 Remarkable results began almost immediately and incrementally increased. 🙂

  2. Someone in my Sunday meeting a couple of weeks ago offered up her belief that we were all doing the best we could at any given moment. The reason I don’t believe that to be true is precisely because of the subject of today’s post. When I shade the truth to make you think that I’m something I’m not, I’m violating that “best I can” tenet in so many ways. It’s all mostly pride and fear, but there’s a witches brew of Macbeth fame of other stuff too. And I know better. May God continue to remove these defects, convince me its ok to be me, teach me to trust, one day at a time

    Shout out to Tom S for joy, contentment, peace

  3. We recovered alcoholics are not so much brothers in virtue as we are brothers in our defects, and in our common strivings to overcome them.
    — AS BILL SEES IT, p. 167
    As I read this and other readings this morning, it occurred to me that we can relate to each other even though we all have such different lives, we have that common thread and sometimes a rope that pulls us together in as because we all can find peace helping each other and in turn it helps us in our recovery process.

  4. Top o the morning Folks. I may not be the man I wanna be but Thank God I’m not the man I used to be. Plenty of room for progress and believe i will with the help of the almighty.

  5. Yes, we all lead different lives, but we are the same. One of my closest AA friends and I had a long overdue chat yesterday and it was evident that although we live totally lives, we clearly have that spiritual connection that when words fail us, we understand each other. How wonderful!
    As I immerse myself in the solution, the “what it was like” part becomes smaller, for me. Living one day at a time, not taking that first drink, attending a meeting everyday either by reading here and contributing, going to an actual AA meeting, or having a phone meeting with like minded people. And now that I can sponsor women, finding my groove for the best way to pass it on.
    My love and prayers go out to all of you that are living the challenges of “life on life’s terms”. I think of you everyday, HarryS, for a positive yet long recovery from his carpal tunnel surgery, Tom S, for courage and some good luck regarding his tumor, (that scares me the most, but you’ve got all of us surrounding you with hope and love), Albert, for his continued sobriety and his devastating grief, and Sister Mary’s daughter for continued improvement! And since we always have “things” going on in our lives, love and prayers to the rest of us!
    The solution is my priority today and with that, living the 12 steps everyday.
    Tom S, if you want to talk privately, Sister Mary can give you my email.
    Have a great sober day everyone!!
    Mags, grateful, recovering alcoholic!

  6. Thanks for all the lovely wishes and warm thoughts!
    You all have put a big old smile on my face.
    Coming out of self into communion with our fellows.
    Prayers for all of God’s children; Harry mentions the Golden Key.
    I am a huge Emmett Fox fan and enjoy seeing the reference.
    Best to all.

  7. Thank God for all past, current and future AA members. I do not like to list future, but when I needed help AA accepted me as a new member. I have to practice How It Works every day. Some days are hard, but if I need someone to share my difficulties with, an AA member is only a phone call away or I can access This24.

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