Well here in the LOVELY Central Valley of California….it’s a muggy 105′ at 6:28pm.
I don’t know about you all, but THIS alcoholic gets THIRSTY when its hot out. And for some reason they play more BEER commercials too. With my furbaby Louie so sick, I need to take him with me if I’m going to a meeting unless I have a sitter, so I stayed home today and meditated on the Daily Reflections. It was talking about “The unity, the effectiveness, and even the survival of A. A. will always depend upon our continued willingness to give up some of our personal ambitions and desires for the common safety and welfare. Just as sacrifice means survival for the individual alcoholic, so does sacrifice means unity and survival for the group and for A. A.’s entire Fellowship.
AS BILL SEES IT, p. 220
Sometimes for THIS alcoholic, all I can do it stay put and NOT DRINK! I enjoyed the day with my granddaughter, my furbabies, and some ICE COLD WATER!!! I hope you are all cool and SOBER too!!!♥
Most of us have many questions about a Higher Power. Sometimes we have more questions than answers. No matter how much we believe about God, there are always questions. Why do bad things happen if God is good? Does God punish people?
Is God called Jesus, Buddha, the Great Spirit? Perhaps we’ve chosen a name for our Higher Power, or maybe we haven’t. Yet, we know there is some Power great than ourselves that’s helping us in recovery. We know what we need to know about God for today. We know how to ask for help, and how to accept help.
Prayer for the Day: Higher Power, help me to know You more clearly. There’s much I’m not sure about. For now, I will act as if the help I get comes from You.
Action for the Day: I’ll think of three ways my Higher Power has done just the right thing for me.
I do have companionship, freedom from worry, a means of releasing my boredom. What I don’t have is regret, remorse, hangovers, and the knowledge that I have “a problem.” I used to drink in bars, my house was empty and there was no one to talk with. In the bars I could strike up a conversation with whomever was sitting on the next bar stool. I kind of expected that the more I drank the more open to conversations with strangers I became. I went to bars because I knew I could meet others who drank, and who knew – maybe, just maybe I would meet “Mr. Wonderful” and I don’t mean than guy on “Shark Tank.” Never, in a hundred years, did I think there would be so many facets to recovery. I thought it was a matter of not drinking, working the Steps and attending the occasional meeting. And then “service” happened. I found a sponsor who was very active in service to A.A., and she took me with her to conferences, assemblies, and other functions where A.A.’s gathered. Today, I live A.A., and I love A.A.
I love my sponsees. We have a two-way street that keeps us connected. They help me, and I work to help them. These relationships grow and change – each one is different, and each has their own set of problems and challenges. This commitment keeps me on my toes, constantly. The very best I can do is share my experience, strength and hope with these wonderful women. I am not a perfect sponsor, and they are not perfect sponsees, but we grow together, we help each other and we give to each other a true sense of fellowship and friendship. They tell me that I have helped them, but the truth is that I have really been helped by these terrific women. So it is a two-way street, and one that I truly enjoy. Life has gotten better for me – I have so much more than I ever anticipated. . . Sobriety is a gift that just keeps on giving.
I never considered that fact of change when I first came into the Program, I, like others, thought it was simply a matter of stopping the drinking – but as I have learned not drinking is only but a beginning. The changes that have occurred in my recovery have been truly remarkable. Thanks to our forefathers and the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous, I enjoy and live a life unlike anything I ever expected.
Humility takes time – at least it has been my experience. First off, understanding what it means to be humble has been made clearer from working the Steps and participating in my personal recovery program. I am not the center of the universe, I am not “all that and a bag of chips.” I am merely a child of God, one of His chosen ones, and He wants what’s best for me, always. Accepting a “power greater than me” was but a beginning of this path that I have been on for the past years. Turning my life over to the care of God, as I understand Him, has brought me to a place of change, a place of growth – a place of peace and comfort. Having humility has brought me to a place of personal acceptance, of “New Frontiers.” Put simply – I love A.A. and it is my prayer and hope that I will continue to be humble enough to accept a power greater than me, and greater than my disease.
Truth – “To Thine Ownself Be True”, “The Truth Will Set You Free,” Truth is an absolute necessity if I am to claim sobriety and recovery of any length of time. I have lied since I was “knee-high” to a grasshopper. There were times when it was a choice of telling the truth and taking the spanking that my action required, according to my father, or it was lie and keep on lying to cover the real truth. So I lied, I lied so much and so often that it became an almost immediate response to questions from adults. Anyway – now I’m in recovery and I need to “tell the truth, the whole truth.”
Today I am a teller of truths, even when it’s hard to do so. I am learning to be upright and honest with others. I may have to think on it a while, and try to find the right words – in an attempt at not only being honest, but trying to be kind in the process, that’s a little harder. So even when I am uncomfortable with the truth, today I work to that end, despite my feelings. I like being honest – it not only feels good, but it is coming to me more naturally the longer I’m in the Program – must be the positive attitude that happens in A.A. – whatever it is, I’ll take it.
There are many facets to my recovery program, and each one is important – but the number one facet which I am learning NOW…is that I MUST get enough rest, enough sleep, and enough prayer-time. My peace and serenity depend on it. Without those things I can easily “lose it.” When I am rushing around from one thing to the next, it is hard to remember that I am “not alone” anymore, I have a Higher Power in my life. I have an ally who will help me find my way through the chaos and emotions of the day. I can take that all important step back, and Let Go and Let God. It’s pretty amazing when that happens.
The “T” in H.A.L.T. stands for tired and that means “don’t get too tired.” And it further states “Physical fatigue will affect both our bodies and our minds adversely and will thereby lower our defenses against the urge to drink if there is any possibility at all of such a desire being present, consciously or unconsciously. The rule of thumb is: When you get tired, put the body down! (How many times have we read and said Easy Does It?)” Sometimes just stopping all activity for a short period of rest is all that is needed when I get overwhelmed with chores and responsibilities. And if I find that I cannot “shut down” my brain, I can get to a meeting and work to stay in the present, in the here and now – that always has a calming effect on me. The bottom line is that if I have a problem of any sort there are solutions, I just need to rely on the Program for direction – and on God for the power to embrace it.