I Can Change, I Can Grow

Change happens when acceptance lead me to the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous. I have changed, over time, it has not been an abrupt change, it has been as subtle as the Program. My life has changed, and my response to life has changed as a direct result of sobriety, and the Program of recovery we call A.A. My anger has abated, my willingness has increased and my very life has been transformed. I am not the person I used to be – and it is my fervent hope that this “new” person is better in ways that matter. I am “a part of” today, no longer the loner, I am now part of a group, part of a Fellowship – I have rejoined the human race.

In the rooms they talked about the changes in their lives, and I began to believe that there just might be a miracle for me, as well. I began to hear what was being said, I began to understand what it means when others say they are “working” the Steps. I was hungry for change in my life, I was hungry for a better life, and I became willing to do whatever it took to grow, to change, and to become all that I admired in others. I still work on it today – and I have learned that it is a life-long process of change and growth. I can accept that today, I can strive towards being a better person. Imagine that! Today, I know that I am capable of change, I am capable of growth, and I am capable of learning new ways of solving old problems.


6 thoughts on “I Can Change, I Can Grow

  1. It has rung down through the ages; “Watch One, Do One, Teach One”.
    So what does this accomplish?
    For one thing it sharpens all of one’s skills very neatly.

    Watch one: – put all your attention on observation.

    Do one – put all your ability on execution, memory, calmness… Etc.

    Teach one – everyone will be quick to acknowledge that the teacher learns more than the student.

    So what is the core ingredient?
    Its practice!

    Practicing alcoholism kept me in constant conflict for it is the exercise of selfishness and self-centeredness in the extreme.
    There was conflict within my family.
    There was conflict with the gendarmes who had some pretty stiff regulations about driving and drinking. They just didn’t think it was a good idea.
    There was conflict with my professional and business associates stemming from lack of responsibility because I would rather be carousing and frolicking than being dependable.

    Our program of recovery is not a “once and done” deal but rather a living program of ” living life on life’s terms”.

    In doing this there are two critical places to ask for spiritual progress.

    One would be redoing Step Six as referred to in the following reflection:

    I need to repeat Step Six so that I can become happier with myself and maintain my serenity.
    From the book Daily Reflections
    Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

    Another is the maintenance step; Step 10 which suggests a continuous inventory of all our doings and correction when necessary.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic.

  2. Had drinking dreams the past 2 nights and very weird because I haven’t had a drink in a while. I should talk to my sponsor because it’s been a few weeks. I think sometimes I feel remorse if I’m not working a good program and maybe comes out in my dreams?

  3. Life is good! Hosting an inter area tomorrow and i look at it as a big picnic for some of the most loving kind tolerant and patient people I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting. They’re will be soul food a plenty and it’s really hard to describe what it’s like to listen to the area chair speak and call the general assembly meeting to order then all of us saying the serenity prayer, the Preamble followed by the responsibility pledge. Over a hundred recovering alcoholics joined in unity for a common cause, to carry the message to the still suffering alcoholic. Just walking into the door at one of these events and seeing the archives is almost overwhelming because there’s a feeling of his presence and a calming of mind and body as i try to wrap my mind around on how many this people program has helped. I am but a wee part of this program that is available to all around the world and privileged to serve another day. God bless my friends. Doubt i’ll be around here tomorrow as i have get going a little earlier than usual.

  4. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
    They’ll always materialise if we work for them.
    Joining in common cause, we come out of self and into community.
    We become useful.
    What a novel concept for a selfish arrogant drunk.
    Aye, miracles abound-all I need do is work for my daily reprieve.
    Grateful for the gift.

  5. I still have drinking dreams now and then. I doubt it means anything. I’m diabetic and this morning I woke up dreaming about eating milk chocolate.
    What does that mean???

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