No More No More

(Thank you ZUZU for this Reflection)
I know one thing that has limits, my patience. I have to be “on guard” for those strong feelings when I am getting near “the end of my rope.” But, as with most things in my life I have trouble defining what “limits” means to me in the real world. I used to say that two drinks was my limit, now I know that was a fallacy. Now I know that one sip is going to far, I do not have a “limit” when it comes to drinking – because one will lead to many. Abstinence is my only saving grace when it comes to King Alcohol. I have a “zero tolerance” policy when it comes to drinking. For me, an alcoholic, to drink is to die.

Whatever the circumstances are, my recovery has to come first. For without recovery I will not have anything or anyone to concern myself with. Setting limits was new for me, and it took a while for me to understand this, and to learn through the process we call recovery, that my needs are just as important as the needs of others. My limits need to be voiced by me, and respected by others. I am a human being – a complex animal with all sorts of needs, and one who is capable of great feats, such as sobriety. But it takes “WE,” it is not something I can do alone, just as the sign says in my Fellowship hall: “I can’t, but WE can.“


3 thoughts on “No More No More

  1. I just didn’t know and I don’t think I was ever informed after I was entered into church through the rite of baptism that there was active participation to be done which should be started immediately and kept up indeterminately.
    Of course I was informed.
    Of course it was gently suggested that I come to church at least every Sunday and many other services in educational benefits were offered but somehow I missed the point that if I didn’t go I wouldn’t get the immediate or long-term benefits.

    It happens to be the same in our recovery fellowship when we urge or suggest to the deepest level that we can get that is absolutely best to come to 90 meetings in 90 days. This is said so often to newcomers that I don’t see for the life of me how they could miss it.
    If they don’t we just have to conclude that they are not ready yet or consciously don’t want it.

    So just like my earlier experience, perhaps we should meet this challenge as they did with patience.

    So what do we get?
    Someone who knew what he was talking about once remarked that pain was the touchstone of all spiritual progress. How heartily we A.A.’s can agree with him. . . .
    When on the roller coaster of emotional turmoil, I remember that growth is often painful. My evolution in the A.A. program has taught me that I must experience the inner change, however painful, that eventually guides me from selfishness to selflessness. If I am to have serenity, I must STEP my way past emotional turmoil and its subsequent hangover, and be grateful for continuing spiritual progress.
    From the book Daily Reflections

    I’m Harry, grateful Alcoholic.

  2. Interesting concept- selflessness.
    I was told it doesn’t mean thinking less of myself so much as thinking of myself less.
    Still working on that, but it’s easy for me to forget that the tenth step suggests after talking to someone else and making my amends that I am to go find someone to help.
    So still got plenty to work on.
    Grateful for the gift.

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