Safety In Numbers

There is something strange that happens to my thinking when I lose my connection to the Fellowship.  I lose the flexibility and fluidity that helps me evaluate things all the way through. Instead, I stop at the point that offers the handiest solution.  My thought process narrows as well – instead of thinking outside the box, the box gets smaller and more confining.  When I try to be my own solution, I quickly get entrenched in a mindset and handily dismiss things that really should be explored more deeply.  I make simple things too complicated and complicated things too simplistic.  I need the Fellowship.  One word, one phrase I have heard a thousand times, one knowing look can be enough to remind me of what is important, where the wisdom lies, who I am, and how I got here.  It is in my nature to want to fly solo.  I don’t like being accountable to others.  I don’t like my views to be challenged.  In some circumstances, these traits are useful and helpful, but when it comes to working my way through life’s ups and downs and personal challenges, I know that I benefit from a wider perspective.  Luckily for me it is readily available, largely consistent, and free of charge.

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18 thoughts on “Safety In Numbers

  1. Good to check back in to This 24. I have lost my connection to the fellowship, even though my body has been there. Have committed to meet with my sponsor regularly and share more at meetings. Amazing how just opening my mouth to share my pain, helps me feel a part of and shows me again how the fellowship is there for me if I just reach out.

  2. My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

    Back when I was in high school and we were presented with some curriculum choices which was kind of rare since we were a very small country school in Troup County Georgia I suppose I must’ve been kind of surprised when we were offered the opportunity to take two years of Latin. I certainly can’t remember the thought processes I had and I don’t recall ever consulting with anyone about it but I elected along with four or five others to form this class under the auspices of Miss Mary Dozier.
    I do recall that I thought this would make me a kind of “Big Shot”.
    I certainly didn’t know what I was doing and lots of times I was completely buffaloed by the process but this grand and patient teacher gently guided us along to accomplish a wee bit of delving into this beautiful language.
    Of course a lot later on I thanked God for this occurrence as I have seen its value repeatedly.
    Each step of the way along the pathway of continuing education more words, language and intellectual pursuit continues to bide me well as a source of tremendous joy and wonder as I near my 84th birthday.

    Just how important is it to learn the language?

    To kind of get over alcoholism. ………..

    I had to learn the recovery language.
    I had to learn the language of spirituality.
    I continue to make very sweet and dear connections on this level by being continuously excited by the process.

    Hallelujah is made up of two words – Hallelu – which means “praise” and Yah – one of the biblical names for God. There are many names for God, and each one has a special meaning. What does the name Yah convey? – Rabbi Eckstein

    Don’t believe wisdom is the same as knowledge. Rather, wisdom is a willingness to be led by “a starry flame through the night” (Wisdom of Solomon 10:17) without being attached to any particular solution. Wisdom is perhaps the opposite of pride—the delusion that we have all the answers and know exactly where we need to go. Wisdom, instead, is openness to wherever the path might lead and empathy for the struggles and anxieties of other people who are trying to figure out life, right alongside us.
    Sometimes I can be wise—empathetic and compassionate. Sometimes I am too wrapped up in my problems and fears, and I must lean on those who love me to help me follow wisdom’s starry flame as it guides me along the roads I travel. — FDBD
    .
    Wow!
    .
    And I thought wisdom was just knowing a lot yet I’ve come to believe it is simply enjoying the journey.

    I’m Harry, grateful 12th stepper. – Georgia, US of A.

  3. Good morning folks. Interesting description of wisdom but I guess I can get stuck on thinking there was must be a known solution or maybe were just talking about blind faith? i know nothing. Sending out prayers. God bless!

  4. The numbers in the rooms helped my wisdom grow. By staying connected I’ve grown up to the ripe age of 4 today. All of this possible through my Higher Power & never having do this alone.

  5. I know what is important in my life: God, Family, Country and the AA principles and fellowship. Every one is key to my recovery. Have a good day and may God bless you as he has blessed me.

  6. Lovely shares…open, inclusive and soft makes me part of His world.
    Closed, exclusive and hard confines me to mine.
    Thanks to you, I know where I belong.
    Grateful for the Gift.

  7. Top of the first monday morning of FY16 family,
    “When I try to be my own solution” I’m more aware today of self-direction/self-propulsion; self-control always leads to discomfort and misery. With His power, I’m a member of His safety.

    Where do I go to be reminded on who I am? Is it God of my understanding, family, friends, mirror, society, work place, church, or with friends of Bill W? Perhaps it’s all of the above. Front site on target, it’s the fellowship. The fellowship is my constant reminder of who I am. I am a defected character. Fellowship celebrates through testifying and witnessing that we deal with alcohol-cunning, baffling, powerful! and patient!!!. Without help it is too much for me. But there is One who has all power-that One is God.

    Its the same power that created the universe. I don’t have to understand; because I’m not Him. it’s a good day to have a good day.

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