I have stopped making all those rash decisions about my life. I have, through the Third Step, made the decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of my Higher Power, God. I try to focus on what’s in front of me to do, and some days I am very busy, while other days I’m not so busy. In addition to the Program I also have my family, and that includes visits from my granddaughter. I cannot foretell my future, other than to say that I pray it will include my Program of recovery and sobriety. And I pray that my health will be good as I age. As for my “larger picture” well that is in God’s hands, and I awake each morning feeling blessed to have one more day on this good earth.


4 thoughts on “Hindsight

  1. My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

    I got locked up a lot. I was in divorce court and various other courts a lot. I had to go to the emergency room to be sewed up a lot. I spent some time in mental institutions including Central State Hospital. I was divorced two times and sued for divorce three times. I had to see my children weeping because of what was going on in our household.. My professional partners welcome my exit from our relationship. I was called on the carpet many times and had to weasel myself out of trouble – but not really.

    “No matter how much it hurts now, someday you will look back and realize your struggles changed your life for the better.”

    Yes but by golly it certainly seems like it took a long time

    I’m Harry, grateful 12th stepper. – Georgia, US of A.

  2. Me too, Doc, wonderful reminder.
    So what to do?
    Like another Doc famously said- Trust God, Clean House, Help Others.
    Enjoying the fullness of each day, just as Bonnie suggests.
    We know what the other way means.
    Grateful for the Gift.

  3. Even in my most difficult times in my life, I managed to find Hope. Hope lead me to the AA program that revived my life with Sobriety and Spirituality. My HP, God, has always been with me. The below poem reflects my relationship with God that is helping me on my road of recovery.

    Footprints in the Sand

    One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

    In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

    This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

    “You promised me Lord,
    that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

    The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”

    Mary Stevenson, 1936

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