I Feel

I’m getting better at expressing my feelings. I still work to consider them valid, or just as genuine as the feelings of others. In the past I would look to others and then try to emulate their feelings, even when they were contrary to my own. Today, I try for more honesty when it comes to my feelings – emotional honesty is so much more complex and difficult than “pocketbook” honesty. Telling another that I disagree with them is not so frightening as it once was. I am – I am important to me, I am a legitimate person with valid feelings – I am.
I am also responsible for my expressing my feelings. I am responsible for what comes out of my mouth. I am responsible for my behavior, as the result of my feelings. I don’t have to react to every feeling I have, I can just feel it, release it and get on with my recovery. I used to be driven by my feelings, and much of those feelings were anger based – as I lived a life of being a victim, therefore justifying those angry feelings. I am responsible for me. “The most beneficial act we can perform is to be true to ourselves, and let others take responsibility for themselves.” Taking responsibility for myself is a big step forward, away from trying to take care of the whole World, and towards simply taking care of me.
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8 thoughts on “I Feel

  1. My times are in your hand.
    My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

    I have heard it said about some of our so-called spiritual giants including lots of those recognized as Saints spent a lot of time in what is called the desert land of spirituality or as we refer to it in our special fellowship “dry drunk” and some purport that it extended in some cases even into years.
    This goes for we and they.
    It seems that none who are on any kind of spiritual pathway avoid this experience.
    And since I declare each morning, “My times are in your hand” hasn’t it after all become God’s responsibility?
    Well yes and no.

    Yes and He’s quite capable of handling it.

    No!

    What is one to do?

    So this grumpiness?

    The old tried and true formula; “Trust God, clean house, help others”.

    I might try putting some feet on my prayers.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

  2. About feelings: I was taught in treatment that feelings could be categorized as, “Mad, Sad, Glad, , Afraid, Ashamed,Hurt”.
    This has been quite helpful to me in recognizing or naming my feelings.

    Harry, alcoholic.

  3. In Pete Wilson’s book Plan B, he writes:

    Your dreams may not be happening, and things aren’t turning out the way you expected, but that doesn’t mean your life is spinning out of control. It just means you’re not in control.

  4. I can feel today, what a blessing. I’m even grateful for the ugly feelings because they tell me to do something knowing isolation and holding them in doesn’t help anyone. There was a song I sang when i was a child entitled ” Feelings” and i would try singing it like Pavarotti I dont have enough lung capacity to sing like that anymore

    What I reallly wanted to share this morning was my morning prayer. I felt compelled to get on my knees and ask for forgiveness stating that i am ready for him to have all of me, good and bad. Then thanking him for this life and asking him to teach me what I need to know today.Not sure what compelled me to get on my knees and ask for forgiveness as I don’t do that everyday but I’d have to say it was a message from above telling me that if I want my desires fulfilled I must first ask and be of some use to him above all else. Now I have some additional prayers for my friends which will continue throughout the day adding more and more. He can I can’t.

  5. I love the morning ritual.
    No matter how I feel upon awakening.
    The detail matters less than the process of coming out of myself and my fears and into Him and His Peace.
    Being Grateful, Grounding in the Moment, Centering in Him, Concentrating on Humility, Rendering and Receiving Forgiveness, Loving and Praying for Direction and Power.
    Becoming myself as His child among His children.
    Wasn’t how it was in the old days.
    Thank you all for showing me the way.
    Grateful for the Gift.

  6. Top of the morning family,
    Walls come down, masks come off, and bam – up comes though pesky feelers.
    The bondage of emotions are difficult to identify because they lie deep inside and often mask themselves as being true. Is there a knot down there? His spirit breaths in and through me; His spirit won’t permit guilt and my over exaggerated fear to live in close quarters of His will.
    Fortunately for me, my tummy can’t mask spirit/heart. Do I own a knot inside of me?
    Today, I can make a decision, how am I going to handle these knots. Today, I can deploy action that can either harm me or learn something from these knots.
    I’m so blessed that Divine Mercy desires a relationship; and not my performance.

    It’s a good day to have a I feel day.

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