Settling In

It’s really important for me to make sobriety number one on my priority list. And because AA is the only thing that’s ever kept me sober, it stands to reason that I’ve got to settle into AA as a lifelong home. I have seen many people do this in many different ways. Some people go to many meetings, roundups and conferences. Other people hold multiple service commitments. Some people twelve-step or sponsor a lot of individuals and make that the core of their program. Over time, these areas of focus can change for a person, and long-term sobriety becomes an unexpected journey. It doesn’t really matter how a person settles in. It matters a lot that somehow he finds a way to connect and stay connected for a lifetime.
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19 thoughts on “Settling In

  1. Tree
    Feb 15, 2013 @ 15:40:16

    Yeah Albert I was just thinking this morning while walking my dog that it feels so free not to have the compulsion to run to CVS or Winn Dixie at 7:00 AM to down a bottle of wine just to feel normal. Just to be able to go to work. Arrghhh the recent memories make me shiver. I strive to pray to my HP continuously for willingness and openness to embrace AA. Like Zuzu said it is the only thing that will keep me sober. My whole life I have tried to conquer my alcoholism and especially the last 3 years after going into rehab in Feb 2010. At my BB study on Wednesday night we read the story “A late start” I can so relate to this story. “My brain told me I was an alcoholic but the rest of me did not want to believe” “Doctors strongly suggest that I participate in AA but I would not have it.” After rehab, “I was cured. I need no further help.” (p 538 BB). Like the women in the story “I did not enter the rooms willingly nor did I find myself immediately at home.” and then on page 539 she talks about the controlled drinking that sent her spinning right back into fearful drunkenness. The story of course has a good ending and she embraced the program. In these 32 days since my last drink I am already experiencing wonderful things i.e. sleeping good, eating right, excercising, and most of all some moments of pure calming serenity. I have a long way to go for emotional, mental and physical healing. But “time takes time”. This is what I truly want. It is not anything I can do except to surrender to my HP, have faith, stay close to fellowship and embrace the program. Prayers to all on this 24 and to those struggling with the program as I. It is the last house on the block. Tree

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    HarryS
    Feb 15, 2013 @ 15:30:12
    Heard at a meeting this morning;
    H.0.P.E.
    “Hold on, Pain ends” 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

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    Tree
    Feb 15, 2013 @ 15:42:30

    Another good one Harry! Just another thanks for posting some time back “A Morning Resolve” It is so helpful in my morning prayers.

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    HarryS
    Feb 15, 2013 @ 16:02:55

    Better Graphic; 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 🙂 🙂 🙂

      • Dear Harry
        Thank yo so much Harty You are so intuitive. I had a fall from grace. It happened out of nowhere, last Sunday I took that first drink, which we know turns to a 1000. When I reluctantly told my sponsor , she advised me to go straight away to the local detox hospital. It was the worse experience ever. THE pitiful, Incomprehensible, demoralization. I was released yesterday with a new resolve. I will not pity my self, but be honest and get back on that horse and ask G-d fot instructions. That is what I am doing now. So excuse me my family I am communing with my Creator on my next step. I LOVE YOU AND LOVE YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPOT.
        TREE

  2. Thank you all for your encouraging words!!!! I am at work right now and so thankful for my Sponsors advise to go to detox or I might not even be able to type the words right now. This disease is so insidious. While in detox there was a gentlemen with five 1/2 years sobriety, active in the program and took that first drink and was right there where I was. We can never let our guard down. It is a daily reprieve. I am so grateful!!

      • It was horrible. I don’t know what psyche meds they had me on but I literally felt I was loosing my mind. I didnt know where I was and I couldnt make sense of anything. It definately gets worse never better. I could not relate to anything or anybody. Paranoia set in so bad and I felt that I was trapped and would never get out. Although this is an awful subject but perhaps serves as an ominous warning. Not worth it at all.

  3. Tree
    I admire your courage and thank you for reminding us, by your experience, why we stick close to this program, each other and our Higher Power.
    You are of service today and I am grateful.
    You will be in many prayers today, I promise you.
    Alone, I can’t.
    Together we can.
    Grateful for the Gift

  4. Thanks Tree For sharing your experience.
    We all need to hear how can we make a split second
    decision that can change everything.
    Glad you got to a meeting right away.
    Remember that a minor setback doesn’t
    negate your experience in the in AA.
    You still have a lot to share with others.

  5. Top of the new day family,
    “It definately gets worse never better. I could not relate to anything or anybody.”
    Exactly the nugget I needed to hear/absorb this day. Thank you Tree for your honesty. I’m happy that you made it back: because you are worth it. Peace and my prayers be with you…

    God places us exactly where He wants us. Through His grace my weaknesseseseses are served for His perfect direction. We are never beyond repair. Today, I’m learning that Divine Mercy desires a relationship; not a performance.

    Today, is a good day for spiritual adjustments.

    “It is funny how mortals always picture us as putting things into their minds: in reality our best work is done by keeping things out.”
    ― C.S. Lewis, The Screwtape Letters

  6. It was so important for you to tell us of your relapse. Honesty, is part of HOW, HONESTY, OPENMINDEDNESS AND WILLINGNESS. The three essential things you must have in order to build a solid recovery. You are part of the “this24” family and from the look of it, absolutely not judged!! I’m so glad you’ve made it back! Your journey continues and we support you as you support us.
    As Tom R said, your slip never negates the work you’ve done! Love you loads!!
    Keep coming back!

  7. Glad you’re back Tree. It took me multiple trips to short-term rehab and then a 12-month rehab followed by 4 months in a sober house. I was in and out of a lot of detoxes in 2005-06. I now try to remember that my attempts to control my drinking failed miserably.

  8. Why do some folks do the same thing repeatedly, expecting different results?
    Why depend on “treatment” fir a “disease” with a 1930s vintage with a 5% success rate? Imagine if we treated cancer or other “diseases” the same way. If snake oil works for me, I suppose I’d continue to take it, but I have no right to prescribe it to others, especially when the death rate is higher than no treatment at all. If faith-healing worked, I’d sacrifice a chicken or something else as ludicrous as what passes for a cure (one day at a time of course) for alcoholism.
    How very sad to see the victims of this cult continue to be victimized.

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