Blessings?

I have stopped making rash decisions about my life. I have, through the Third Step, made the decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of my Higher Power, God. I try to focus on what’s in front of me to do, and some days I am very busy, while other days I’m not so busy. Phone calls are always appreciated and I love the fact that I attend meetings regularly. In addition to the Program I also have my family, and that includes my visiting my granddaughter, which is limited due to my relapse, but every second with her is a blessing. I cannot foretell my future, other than to say that I pray it will include my Program of recovery and sobriety. And I pray that my health will be good as I age. As for my “larger picture” well that is in God’s hands, and I awake each morning feeling blessed to have one more sober day on this good earth. ♥

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6 thoughts on “Blessings?

  1. My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

    Looking back on it, for the life of me I don’t see how anyone with any common sense and good judgment would not want to surrender the Self-Will Run Riot which had eventually brought me to this point in my life.

    Earlier a great example in the tale of the prodigal son emphasizes a point of common sense and good judgment “when he came to his senses”.

    You see just a cursory review of my life story revealed many things which I would never want to do again but I had repeatedly done them.
    Here are a few examples.

    I got locked up a lot. I was in divorce court and various other courts a lot. I had to go to the emergency room to be sewed up a lot. I spent some time in mental institutions including Central State Hospital. I was divorced two times and sued for divorce three times. I had to see my children weeping because of what was going on in our household.. My professional partners welcomed my exit from our relationships. I was called on the carpet many times and had to weasel myself out of trouble – but not really.
    “No matter how much it hurts now, someday you will look back and realize your struggles changed your life for the better.”
    Yes but by golly it certainly seems like it took a long time for me to come to my senses!

    9
    MARCH
    SURRENDERING SELF-WILL
    Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
    — TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 34
    No matter how much one wishes to try, exactly how can one turn his own will and his own life over to the care of whatever God he thinks there is? In my search for the answer to this question, I became aware of the wisdom with which it was written: that this is a two-part Step.
    I could see many times where I should have died, or at least been injured, during my previous style of living, and it never happened. Someone, or something, was looking after me. I choose to believe my life has always been in God’s care. He alone controls the number of days I will be granted until physical death.
    The matter of will (self-will or God’s will) is the more difficult part of the Step for me. It is only when I have experienced enough emotional pain, through failed attempts to fix myself, that I become willing to surrender to God’s will for my life. Surrender is like the calm after the storm. When my will is in line with God’s will for me, there is peace within.

    Sometimes it’s really easy to say a big AMEN!

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

  2. When I surrendered, truly surrendered, out of desperation, ego-driven self reliance was finally replaced by my sensing the Presence of A Greater Power.
    Fear subsided a bit, and awareness of His Grace entered.
    The stronger, more intelligent, more arrogantly crushed by self importance I become the more difficult for this union within-of my awareness and the divine.
    For many of us, it takes what it takes.
    Grateful for the Gift

  3. Top of the morning family,
    It’s super easy to ask for blessings; I’m learning it’s just as easy to be thankful for blessings. Today, I’m grateful for Divine Mercy’s gift of protecting me from my foolish wants/desires. Today, I can look in the mirror and express a one word response on how I feel. How I feel is proportional to how I think. How I think is directly related to what I achieve. I’ve started and stopped many times in my spiritual journey. Divine Mercy blesses with His strength/ His courage to march forward in faith to complete His mission for my life.
    My misery, His ocean of mercy.
    Today is a good day to enjoy this day.

  4. I can’t tell you how heartsick I would be if I couldn’t see my grands! Sobriety, for me, is such a spiritual gift. All the rest is ice cream!!(although that addictive eating is gone!) 🍧🍦🍨
    Keep it up SMB, life can only get better

    • I believe that sometimes the ones that are the closest to us are the ones that set limits to our life. They and everyone makes a mistake. Why punish when someone needs TLC. I have never agreed on this punishment and I will never will. Bonnie, I hope your Daughter understands the pro’s and con’s of allowing you to see her Daughter (Your Grand). You do not need another resentment or additional feeling the pain in your heart and soul of a failure. My prayers are with you and anyone else that has had this form of punishment come into their lives. Again, this is my opinion and I might be wrong.

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