Is It Odd, Or Is It……..


Maggs 6 yrs chip
Maggs 6 yrs chip

Willingness was always an issue for me, before recovery. I tried to force my will on others, and I was always absolutely sure that I was right and “you” were wrong. I just thought if I were strong enough, confidant enough or bold enough my self-will would work in my life. Time after time I would put my head down, my elbows out, and go forth blindly – intent on proving that my way was the only way. I was stubborn, arrogant, and quite sure that the world owed me whatever I decided I needed. What a difference the Program has made in my life. I sincerely care about others, I am willing to be of service wherever and whenever needed, and my faith in God, and the Program, has grown by leaps and bounds. I have an attitude of gratitude today, I am humbled, and I know, without a shred of doubt, that God can do for me what I could not do for myself. And all of you here at THIS24 have been a great inspiration and strength until I could love myself!! Is it ODD, or is it GOD?


9 thoughts on “Is It Odd, Or Is It……..

  1. “Many of us needed an overhaul there”.

    So far as I remember it only says this one time in the big book and its not about setting the tone and having a daily plan of action (schedule) for the day ahead.
    But as my old sponsor often said in response to the question of what must be changed – “Everything”.
    Of course I often had a daily plan of action which included things like going to work, caring for my kids, being a responsible member of my community but as far as I can remember now almost never included prayer and meditation but by cracky more often than I care to admit or even remember now quite often my imperious desires held sway over my good intentions.

    So what happened?

    I sank deeper and deeper into following the lower way nearly to the bitter end.

    Then decency and good sense in response to a feeling of desperation entered and somehow mysterious grace and mercy came upon me and in a little while I wound up in southern Mississippi in intensive care for the disease of alcoholism and one of the things they had us do was make either a simple schedule for our weekends when we didn’t have a planned schedule they had for us.
    This was difficult and required a stretch in my usual process for choices seem to be limited but somehow the task was rudimentaly completed.

    Today my daily plan of action includes an hour or two each morning getting on track for the day ahead and a simple plan or schedule is generally followed under the auspices of a Morning Resolve which is included here:

    A Morning Resolve
    I will try this day to live a simple, sincere and serene life, repelling promptly every thought of discontent, anxiety, discouragement, impurity, and self-seeking; cultivating cheerfulness, magnanimity, charity, and the habit of holy silence; exercising economy in expenditure, generosity in giving, carefulness in conversation, diligence in appointed service, fidelity to every trust, and a childlike faith in God.

    In particular I will try to be faithful in those habits of prayer, work, study, physical exercise, eating, and sleep which I believe the Holy Spirit has shown me to be right.

    And as I cannot in my own strength do this, nor even with a hope of success attempt it, I look to thee, O Lord God my Father, in Jesus (God of my understanding) my Savior, and ask for the gift of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

    Is it Odd or is it God that Liquor is not in my daily plan of action?

  2. The Path…before us, the recovering.
    His will? That I put myself upon it.
    My Will? Could be just about anything…
    The BB says that “…we alcoholics are undisciplined, so we let God discipline us…”
    My rebellious, imperious, feral ego submit to God’s discipline?
    The gentle task each morning, asking to be shown the way of patience, tolerance, kindliness and love.
    Grateful for the Gift

  3. Top of the morning family,
    Awesome Maggie, six years is testimony of hope and of His truth. Thank you.
    Around my stomping grounds in western Colorado. It’s very seldom to hear of recovery from 5-10years. Sorta like baby pigeons, I believe there around, but I don’t see them.
    Discernment in His purpose allows me to linger a little longer in solitude/prayer. My experience yes; is it odd yes. My mess of life was, has, and will be turned into His message. That’s power. I need power. His power stretches my faith way beyound what I can handle. He alone,(with no help from me, raised the sun). A new day, and the world/self starts jockeying for free parking in my life. The posture of self allows time/space to grow my self centered fears. Afraid of not getting what I want; afraid of not getting justice. Afraid of not picking up what Divine Mercy is laying down.
    I need His message of hope. This fellowship is our message of hope.
    I pray for the His gift of optimism. While we don’t brag/flaunt our past, we share what we once were and who we are now in His truth. This allows His grace to set us free and that others can be free through our testimony.
    Today, my self-centered fears are filibustering His power into self-messes. I pray for His mercy to change my heart so my mess can become His message. My misery, His mercy.
    A little voice answered me the other day: I made you the way you are; because I love you.

    Its a good day not to be rebellious dogs at every step of this day.

  4. Congratulations Maggie and words can not express my gratitude. Mwuah! I’m Dan grateful alcoholic, keeping it simple. Been difficult to get here lately with my brother here taking refuge right near my computer. Ma’s doing well and its been a blessing having one of my bro’s around for a few days. Love ya all

  5. You all are awesome! Thank you for your encouragement! I always keep in mind that the insanity will return. What I do to make that insanity not lead me to a drink is what they told me 30 years ago, don’t drink, go to meetings, get a sponsor and the rest will follow! I sponsor women now and it was another spiritual gift!
    Grateful for this24 and AA.
    Thx soto, kt, 3D, Clay and this24!!
    I found my keys… My hp gave me the clear head to remember where I might have lost them!

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