Are You F.I.N.E?

How can we take a drink, knowing what we learn in the Program? Our minds want to convince us that this time will be different – it never is, never.  This is my life, my choice, my decision, and my salvation – for me to drink is to die.  I have found the solution in the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous, just as others.  It is a simple program for complex people.  I am grateful to the newcomer who continually relates to me through their stories how life will continue to be a real hell, if I choose to drink!

3/21/16 Headed Home
3/21/16 Headed Home

10 thoughts on “Are You F.I.N.E?

  1. When I am in fit spiritual condition I react sanely to alcohol. How do I tell when I am not spiritually fit? I have thoughts about drinking.
    My father is allergic to shrimp and he is sane where shrimp is concerned. He can recall with sufficient clarity the painful memory of the last time he had shrimp. He recoils from shrimp as if from a white hot flame. He doesn’t know for sure if he is still allergic to shrimp but he never wants to try again. The risk is not worth it.
    When I am working the program to the best of my abilities, I feel that way about drink. My thinking turned from “I can never drink again,” to “I don’t have to drink again.” That is sanity.

  2. My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

    What an amazing thing; “NO MORE STRUGGLE…”

    So what was the struggle?

    We felt we had a struggle with alcohol, didn’t we?

    But it was the eternal struggle of all mankind of our childish vainglorious ego versus the mature humble ego in the ongoing struggle to disprove the wisdom of the ages: “There is a God and it’s not you” as my old sponsor told me a few times..

    Like almost everyone I know who ever reaches any minimal state of humility I must acknowledge that I have certainly received much more than I ever expected when I entered the first smoke filled room of jocular, happy joyous and free alcoholics who were attempting to give it away in order to keep it.
    This apparent conundrum plays out continuously in my life as I have as an example come from arising 15 minutes early to do a brief prayer and meditation. Incrementally to arising nearly 3 hours earlier to spend an extensive enjoyable time with God as I understand him and becoming more and more prepared in the fullness of grace to give it away.
    Giving away is like passing a beautiful fragrant flower on to someone else.
    It can’t be done without the fragrance lingering on one’s fingertip and in one’s senses.

    So aren’t we admonished to “Pass It on” continuously?

    And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone— even alcohol.
    When A.A. found me, I thought I was in for a struggle, and that A.A. might provide the strength I needed to beat alcohol. Victorious in that fight, who knows what other battles I could win. I would need to be strong, though. All my previous experience with life proved that. Today I do not have to struggle or exert my will. If I take those Twelve Steps and let my Higher Power do the real work, my alcohol problem disappears all by itself. My living problems also cease to be struggles. I just have to ask whether acceptance—or change—is required. It is not my will, but His, that needs doing.
    From the book Daily Reflections

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

  3. I forgot to wish everyone a Happy Spring yesterday. The morning of the open heart. New beginnings.
    We can either bemoan our alcoholism or we can see it as an asset in that it makes us draw more heavily on G-d.
    Brrrrrr 60 degrees in sunny south Florida. Enjoying most likely the last of the cold snaps
    Namaste, Tree.

  4. Today, I pray for the courage to remain faithful when the fears and pains of my transformation are overwhelming.
    Exerpt from meditation

    We have been speaking about recovery quote a bit lately as we aa participants do and I liked the part of this reading where we talk about b r in faithful to our beliefs. As I used to drink or exhibit other behaviors that were totally self distructive. Now each day gets a bit easier, with our Good Orderly Direction . GOD.
    THANK YOU EACH OF YOU ! For your experience, strength and hope. Kt

  5. The Path, for me, has some bits a wee bit more slippery than others; that’s where and when my ego shows up. But my fellows, trudging alongside, in front, behind, put out their hands, put an arm around my shoulder and we carry on. Many times no words need even be shared. But the heart feeling is always there.
    Grateful for the Gift

  6. Top of the morning family,
    When I feel like quitting, it usually means that I’m carrying a heavy load that God doesn’t mean for me. God isn’t upset by the fact that I sometimes want to quit. He knows my spirit/heart. He knows this by my conversations with Him. Experience has proven, that Divine Mercy will never quit on me. He will always be with me regardless of what I say or do. That’s unconditional love. It’s always the person in the mirror that removes my hand from His.
    Give me your strength to march on in faith this day.
    Give us our daily bread.
    It’s a good day to drop the rock.

  7. My last drink, December 7, 2005: I’d been in AA for about 1.5 years, got 90 days and drank, then almost nine months and drank. On the second go round, I come home from work, no plans to drink, no occasion for drinking (other than that’s what I do!). I walk by the refrigerator in the basement, open and find to my surprise a 3/4 full bottle of crappy chardonnay at least a year old. The next thing I know the bottle is empty and I’m in total despair. That occasion shattered any illusion that I drank for taste or for the social effect or for any reason other than I’m an alcoholic and that’s what I do.

    So when people say we’re miracles, I second the motion. Sobriety is far more something that has been given to me than something I’ve worked for or earned or taught myself. If I think I’m insulated, I’m vulnerable. Only when I’m resting in His goodness and His mercy do I have a shot.

    It’s a good day to be a newcomer (and by the way Clay, love your shares!), even if you’ve got a couple of days.

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