Spiritual Foundations

In retrospect it seems that I spent years in a state of longing to be accepted by others, but assuming full-well that my life was anything but “normal.” I used to daydream of doing some deed that would bring the attention of the world to me. That never happened. But, in recovery I have found that my expectations are more in line with my performance, and my life. I no longer need to feel like I am the “center of the universe,” now I am content to just feel “useful.” Today, it’s not so much how important I am made to feel, what is important is that I remain willing to be of service to others, however that may define itself. I bore the weight of my previous behaviors, and found them all wanting. I wanted to be “normal,” I wanted to “fit in.” and I wanted approval from others; I clearly thought that I needed those things to be a “success” in life. Giving of myself anonymously is one of the basic tenets of A.A. This can be done through donations when the “basket” is passed. Whatever or however service defines itself in my life, my part in the Program is to keep showing up, keep the plug in the jug, and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

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10 thoughts on “Spiritual Foundations

  1. APRIL 6
    A LIFETIME PROCESS
    We were having trouble with personal relationships, we
    couldn’t control our emotional natures, we were a prey to
    misery and depression, we couldn’t make a living, we had a
    feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were
    unhappy, we couldn’t seem to be of real help to other
    people. . . .
    ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 52

    My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

    “We claim spiritual progress, not spiritual perfection”. – Big Book

    What a comfort these words have been for this pilgrim on a spiritual pathway. And another very short sentence in the book declares, “Do not be discouraged”.

    So many get discouraged and quit!

    So many are like the children of Israel who lamented, “Oh that we could have died in Egypt (rather than go on this arduous journey)”

    I was beginning to feel this way when they appeared; The Promises!
    “We will know a new freedom and a new happiness”. – Big Book

    The book knows so much about the nature of alcoholics and perhaps human nature.

    I call this wisdom.

    I didn’t get sick overnight in the can expect to get well overnight but I can be healed.

    I’m Harry alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

    • edited— I didn’t get sick overnight and I can’t expect to get well overnight but I can expect to be healed.

      I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

  2. I woke up feeling in the doldrums (a word my mother use to always say for depression) But like Harry said we didn’t get sick overnight and we cant expect to get well overnight. But i knew i had to express Gratitude to get out of that state. Grateful that I am sober today!. Free from the hellish nightmare that is untreated alcoholism. And to quote Bonnie,” keep showing up, keep the plug in the jug, and one foot in front of the other”. This too shall pass. Namaste, Tree

  3. Top of the morning family,
    Today, peace is found when I relax and allow His universe to come to me. My spiritual battle rhythm must be focused on His promises and not my problems. My desires must be centered on His desires for me. When my heart is alive for His purpose/will for me, His timing starts to make sense: He is the author of generosity.
    My daily battle rhythm consists of 5 cadences:
    – Working my daily PHD, praise Him daily in all my affairs
    – Chit/chat with another alcoholic
    – Find a mentor. Anything that rubs me wrong; in that, there’s something inside of me that needs to be changed.
    – Happiness in
    – Happiness out

    It’s a good day to enjoy this day.

    BB Appendix II, Spiritual Experience, p.567
    He finally realizes that he has undergone a profound alteration in his reaction to life; that such a change could hardly have been brought about by himself alone.

    • Clay, I like that you referenced Spiritual Experience bb appendix p 567, my sponsor mad sure we read that right off the start when we were working the steps, it really helped me. Kt

  4. You guys showed me a way of life based upon principle, not fear.
    You showed me that transient emotion could be honoured, but need not be obeyed.
    That I could have all my heart’s desires by giving away everything I coveted.
    I was stubborn, recalcitrant, filled with pride and shame.
    You were kind, respectful and held safe space for me.
    You showed me your heart, and in doing so helped me find mine.
    The timeless miracle of redemption, on earth, once again.
    Grateful for the Gift

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