Wanting-Willing

I was quite surprised when I found myself becoming willing to do what was suggested, and I think there were a few others who were also surprised at my willingness, in view of the fact that I was hard-headed. I was hurting enough that I became willing to wait for acceptance, I surrendered to A.A., and then A.A. led me to the Steps, which taught me how to live a sober life. And they further brought me to a faith in a power greater than me and greater than my disease. I have been willing to accept the idea of a greater power, I have been willing to place my life and my will in the hands of this “Power.” My “Spiritual Awakening” happened over time, just as God intended, for me. My wants are being met, my willingness continues, and my connection with God is evident every day in my life.
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5 thoughts on “Wanting-Willing

  1. APRIL 9
    FREEDOM FROM “KING ALCOHOL”
    . . . let us not suppose even for an instant that we are not
    under constraint. . . . Our former tyrant, King Alcohol,
    always stands ready again to clutch us to him Therefore,
    freedom from alcohol is the great “must” that has to be
    achieved, else we go mad or die.
    AS BILL SEES IT, p. 134
    When drinking, I lived in spiritual, emotional, and
    sometimes, physical confinement. I had constructed my
    prison with bars of self-will and self-indulgence, from
    which I could not escape. Occasional dry spells that
    seemed to promise freedom would turn out to be little more
    than hopes of a reprieve. True escape required a
    willingness to follow whatever right actions were needed to
    turn the lock. With that willingness and action, both the
    lock and the bars themselves opened for me. Continued
    willingness and action keep me free—in a kind of extended
    daily probation—that need never end.

    probation
    .
    the release of an offender from detention, subject to a period of good behavior under supervision.

    For we of the alcoholic bent good behavior means abstinence from alcohol and since we have been proven repeatedly not to be able to do this by ourselves, perhaps we should get a little help.
    When I try a loving, caring fellowship and a higher power of the same disposition?

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12 stepper.

  2. . It takes time to learn how to give in healthy ways. It takes time to learn to receive. Be patient. Balance will come.

    God, please guide my giving and my motives today.

    I read this morning that balance is part of our recovery in respect to giving to much for the wrong reasons, like guilt, shame, and for me trying to make it better. So I have been a bit compulsive ,lol, with giving in the past, especially to daughter , for many of these mentioned reasons. So it is good for me to continue to be aware of the balances needed in recovery, and I can continue to ask hp to help me be aware to do thy will not mine.

  3. I am trying to becoming emptier, by bringing forth love, more than “filling the hole” as my ego/ emotion dictate…a few little successes from time to time…but it feels right deep inside…an ancient idea (kenosis), but new to me…
    Grateful for the gift

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