I have quit running – running from myself, running from my addiction, running from those who love me. Today, I can stop running, I can stand on my own two feet and give God time to catch up with me. Looking inside myself has been an exploration unlike anything I ever expected. I have been quite surprised to find out that there is both bad and good traits within me. It’s called being human, and like I’ve heard it said “To err is human, to forgive is divine.” I have learned to forgive myself, I have learned to forgive others, and I have learned to have faith in my Higher Power. Accepting myself, as is, affords me a freedom unlike anything I ever expected. I am grateful for the lessons I continue to learn, my emotional growth, and my faith in God.

Photo courtesy of Maggs!!
Photo courtesy of Maggs!!


6 thoughts on “EGO/Me?

  1. When I consider how my lights is spent ere half my days in this dark world and wide….

    Little did I realize that these learnings from my college days would be coming back to entice me so much later. These things which I considered rather trivial but which must have had a profound effect for otherwise why would they still be coming up?

    This poem written by one of our great poets when the obvious reality of coming and impending blindness was upon him is spoken from his soul to my soul.

    What does it tell me about my relationship with God and God’s nature?

    The bottom line is my mantra lots of the time.

    When I Consider How My Light Is Spent
    John Milton, 1608 – 1674

    When I consider how my light is spent,
    Ere half my days in this dark world and wide,
    And that one talent which is death to hide
    Lodged with me useless, though my soul more bent
    To serve therewith my Maker, and present
    My true account, lest He returning chide;
    “Doth God exact day-labor, light denied?”
    I fondly ask. But Patience, to prevent
    That murmur, soon replies, “God doth not need
    either man’s work or His own gifts. Who best
    Bear His mild yoke, they serve Him best. His state
    Is kingly: thousands at His bidding speed,
    And post o’er land and ocean without rest;
    They also serve who only stand and wait.”

    I’m Harry, devoted 12th stepper.

  2. Harry, I love your posts! You must still have your “Anthology ” from college, as do I!
    I also, really like when you post the Daily Reflections! Obviously it creates no problem with the world wide headquarters of AA! ( such a strange thing thing considering our main goal, “to stay sober and help others achieve sobriety”.

    • Thank you so much Maggie. I use the daily reflections very carefully considering the fair use provision in the copyright law. This is intended as a tool of change for alcoholics and is funny allowable for that purpose

  3. Gentle greetings, fellow trudgers.
    Receiving a few shoulder taps from life recently.
    That loving my neighbour as myself, means love freely given, without condition or resentment; otherwise it isn’t really love.
    That both myself and my neighbour receive this love, interchangeably, in indistinguishable flowing exchange, whether apparently acknowledged or not; it is a state of aware, energetic flow, typically unspoken.
    That love is in infinite abundance, growing larger and stronger as I align and maintain my will with His; it is my assigned task.
    That I am only asked to love; it is reserved for God, alone, to judge.
    Used to be I just loved to drink.
    Grateful for the Gift

  4. I am still running but I am running to not from. I run through the steps. I run to help a fellow trudger who has fallen. It is an easier, gentler stride but I am still going.

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