Be True

If I can work towards being true to myself, I will have less times of struggle, resentments, and dishonesty. The Spiritual Principles would be at work in my life. All of these fine behaviors will have little impact if I am not true to myself. I cannot lie to myself, I know the truth – at least the truth as it relates to me and sobriety. I do not “follow the crowd” but rather follow my own sense of right and wrong. It may be different than yours – and that’s how it should be. I am my own unique individual, just as each of you are. When I first came to the rooms I had very little self-esteem, but I could see the benefits of sobriety in the faces of others. Just making the decision to admit my defeat over alcohol, and acknowledging the concept of a Higher Power, were the beginnings of recovery, and faith in myself as a valid human being. I believed for many years that I was “damaged goods” and therefore not worthy of anything good. Today I know that was a lie I told myself.
What lies do you tell yourself?
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4 thoughts on “Be True

  1. Is it true that “Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas and the result was nil until we let go absolutely”? – Big Book.
    Ideas like, “I Am a Piece of Crap!”
    Is it true that “I am a precious child of God”?
    Harry, grateful alcoholic.

    • Ps My soul rests with you, my Anamchara.

      My friend who I sometimes have accused of being an dyslexic agnostic who may have thought that God was a “dog” shared this with me and I’m absolutely sure it was “tongue in cheek” for I know today this person who once unashamedly told me that any mention of or acknowledgment of any higher power just wasn’t part of his family’s life, nor his life.

      Three Dollars Worth of God

      I would like to buy $3 worth of God, please.
      Not enough to explode my soul or disturb my sleep,
      but just enough to equal a cup of warm milk
      or a snooze in the sunshine.
      I don’t want enough of God to make me love a black man
      or pick beets with a migrant.
      I want ecstasy, not transformation.
      I want warmth of the womb, not a new birth.
      I want a pound of the Eternal in a paper sack.
      I would like to buy $3 worth of God, please.
      — Wilbur Rees

      “When we know better, we do better”. Chuck C.

      Oh what a transformation!

      I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

  2. Powerful poem…of course, I want more than $3 worth of God…maybe $4.28!
    Like the line Jack Nicholson delivers from “A Few Good Men”…” The truth? You can’t handle the truth!”
    And that distance between my life as lived and The Truth, The Absolute Perfection, becomes the measure of my messy humanness and of His Perfect Love.
    Thankfully we have a Sixth and Seventh Step to which I may humbly turn, asking for His aid to bridge the chasm.
    Grateful for the Gift

  3. Top of the morning family,
    My daily W.O.H! is directly proportional to my daily freedom/peace. The more I lie in life, the more life lies back at me. Self tells lies. Often masked as, I got this; I got it all under control; if I could only get a break. turn around/give up, why did you even try. Then self begins the illusion of power dance. Divine Mercy isn’t fooled my superficial behavior.

    Step 7 has three core ingredients: Trust God, knowledge of my human weaknesses, and humility.
    My desire for a relationship with Divine Mercy destroys self; ego buster. My days of tricks, dishonesty, and deception are over. I’m learning that self-worth is solely based on my personal relationship with my Creator. My daily battle rhythm involves several ethos:
    – Either I’m hateful or grateful
    – Am I dividing or multiplying
    – What’s my motivation
    – Who receives the honor / glory
    – If I’m not doing daily amends then I’m not seeking His design for living.
    When I was in detox, I cried for help…His presence was made known to me.
    My heart heard: the truth is with Me, stay, and you’ll have no more fear.

    It a good day to be gentle with the person in the mirror.

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