Awareness of just who I am, and what that entails is an ongoing process, one that continues to this very day. Age is just a number. Today I believe that I will never stop learning about me; who I am, what I am and where I am. Today my mind is clear enough to grasp the idea of a Power greater than my disease. Today, I know that spiritual acceptance was what I need to “fill the hole.” I never knew that the joy of giving would bring me so much happiness and serenity and would be the one thing that fills that terrible emptiness that no longer drives me nuts. Today I can honestly say that I have stopped looking for an external fix for an internal problem. Thanks to the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous.