(Repeat From Zuzu 2012) We Relax and Take it Easy. We do not Struggle.

(AWESOME shares today everyone. Thank you for your prayers, and suggestions! Day 2, a DAY at a time…and I’m NOT taking this lightly. This disease KILLS! So, let’s play nice here friends! HUGS to all)

These two radical sentences from page 86 of the Big Book were the most surprising and reassuring statements I had encountered in AA. Yet they seemed lovely on paper, but very impractical for such a busy person as I. Those who relax and take it easy watch daytime television in a Lazy Boy. They don’t fold their underwear. They don’t tear their lettuce into bite sized pieces. The two sentences refer to our response to confusion and uncertainty. After pausing and checking in with our Higher Power, we are told we can then kick back and chill. It took a very long time for me to accept this attitude as responsible and sensible. Surely anyone who would be desperate enough to pray for guidance on a dilemma would not then follow with a crossword puzzle. All my life I approached any challenge with full force of effort. I only knew “off” or “full throttle.” All the cliches about work, play, gain and pain were my mottos. Because of that I often “hit the wall” and experienced every form of burnout, but allowed myself to indulge in those states, having knocked myself out to get there. Up, down, race, crash, I was a motocross bike. To change this dramatic cycle of frenzy and collapse to a steady, predictable, measured and even pace of effort was completely disorienting. It felt like someone else’s life, like a piece of my brain and personality had been severed away, leaving me without some vital driving energy I used to have. I felt weak, slow, ineffectual, and mostly, apathetic. I had never known caring in the absence of crisis. I would like to say that I have completely changed and that I am no longer obsessive, high strung, and perpetually worried. But that would be lying. I am still a mess in many ways. But at least I can sit still, for a little while, at least. A reason to give thanks.

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10 thoughts on “(Repeat From Zuzu 2012) We Relax and Take it Easy. We do not Struggle.

  1. So I was called; so Grace led me on; I am thankful to continue.

    My ministry is central in many of my activities including my ongoing commitment activities in the pursuit of sobriety.

    “be ye therefore sober”– https://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/1-Peter-4-7/

    I believe I have been blessed to have 2 astonishing ministries in my life.
    One I did for 45 years and it lingers; one I am in now or 29+ years called sobriety and may it linger!

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted 12th stepper.

  2. I was talking to my neighbor last night about a certain individual whom I was hanging out for the past few months and he said he can see that she doesnt have what it takes to stay sober. We were talking about the conviction and determination we must have to stay sober and Ive been fooled so many times before by some that say they’re gonna do this yet go back out. I hope n pray that I can continue to help show the way as I have been shown albeit a wavy path which can be hard to stay on. Service always works for me and I still have a hard time at times helping others but this remains true in my heart and soul. If I am helping others how can I possibly fail? God help me to help them.

  3. For me, in my personal experience, the “relax/struggle” continuum is less about degree of effort and more about upon whom am I truly relying.
    As I learn to abandon “self” ( thoughts, emotions, beliefs) and rely upon A Power Other Than Myself ( God of my Understanding, AA Fellowship, service), a new source of strength, peace and direction enters my life. I “relax”and seek to dwell within this new found goodness.
    Grateful for the Guft

    • Thank you Tom! This will be my mantra…ALONG with my sponsors guidance and the steps and meetings and service!!! I started today with…Thy Will Be Done!!!

  4. It’s interesting that, in AA, admitting defeat and waving the white flag actually helps me stay sober. I guess just being humble and willing to take advice.

  5. A close friend shared with me that his first thought when I talked at my first meeting was that I was not going to stay sober. Although he has said it was probably more about him than me, I can understand. I think he saw skepticism and a level of arrogance. Fortunately I ended up with a temp sponsor and started going through the steps immediately. I have been sober since.

  6. I heard through the gossip grapevine at work that a “friend” said that he thought I was too weak to stop drinking…not sure what that means. The interesting part is that complete surrender and admitting powerlessness (or weakness I guess) is the key to sobriety. Each day, I try to focus on humility and just try to keep an open mind and remember I can’t drink today.

  7. Top of the morning family,
    RE: “I only knew “off” or “full throttle.”
    That’s a heavy metal thunder nugget.

    Right smack in the 3rd step: there’s a toggle switch for power.
    – Off position for self propulsion.
    – On position for the One who has all power.
    We get what we select.
    Today, peace is found when I relax and allow His universe to come to me.

    It’s a good day to have a thank you day; even to the person in the mirror.

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