My wish for all of This24 is for MORE peaceful and joyful moments in 2017. Only in sobriety can we genuinely experience these true and happy times. Be proud of YOU and remember that with each sober breath you take, you are giving yourself the most precious gift. An added bonus: remembering last night and starting the new year without a hangover!! My intentions are to judge less, look at the positive, take more deep breaths, trust my gut and STAY SOBER! WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What do YOU wish???????
(From AA Thought for Today)
If we cannot or will not achieve sobriety, then we become truly lost, right in the here and now.
We are of no value to anyone, including ourselves, until we find salvation from alcohol.
Therefore, our own recovery and spiritual growth have to come first—
a right and necessary kind of self-concern.
– As Bill Sees It, p. 81
Thought to Ponder . . .
It is simple, it is selfish, it is AA, and it works wonders.
I believe in service work, particularly sponsorship of other women in the Program. Service keeps the doors open, and provides a place for both newcomer and old timer, and all those “in-betweeners” to meet and share their experience, strength and hope with each other. The Program helps us to get sober, but it is the Fellowship that keeps us in recovery.
On another note, service also comes in the form of being there when one of us is ill. We lost a very dear friend last night. She would’ve had 35 yrs in March. Her name was Amanda H. She paved the road for my spiritual journey, and will continue to guide me from Heaven. Thank you for your prayers. She is now at peace.
Reflection For The Day
The success of The Program, i’ve been taught, lies in large measure in the readiness and willingness of its members to go to any lengths to help others tyrannized by their addictions. If my readiness and willingness cools, then I stand in danger of losing all that I’ve gained. I must never become unwilling to give away what I have, for only by so doing will I be privileged to keep it. Do I take to heart the saying, “Out of self into God into others…”?
Quote is from “The Language of Letting Go” December 27th: “Near the Top”
I know you’re tired. I know you feel overwhelmed. You may feel as though this crisis, this problem, this hard time will last forever. It won’t. You are almost through. You don’t just think it has been hard; it has been hard. You have been tested, tried, and retested on what you have learned. Your beliefs and your faith have been tried in fire. You have believed, then doubted, then worked at believing some more. You have had to have faith even when you could not see or imagine what you were asked to believe. Others around you may have tried to convince you not to believe in what you were hoping you could believe. You have had opposition. You have not gotten to this place with support and joy. You have had to work hard, in spite of what was happening around you. Sometimes, what motivated you was anger; sometimes fear. Things went wrong – more problems occurred than you anticipated. There were obstacles, frustrations, and annoyances en route. You did not plan on this being the way it would evolve. Much of this has been a surprise; some of it has not been at all what you desired. Yet, it has been good. Part of you, the deepest part that knows truth, has sensed this all along, even when your head told you that things were out of whack and crazy, that there was no plan or purpose, that God had forgotten you. So much has happened, and each incident – the most painful, the most troubling, the most surprising – has a connection. You are beginning to see and sense that. You never dreamt things would happen this way, did you? But they did. Now you are learning the secret – they were meant to happen this way, and this way is good, better than what you expected. You didn’t believe it would take this long, either – did you? But it did. You have learned patience. You never thought you could have it, but now you know you do. You have been led. Many were the moments when you thought you were forgotten, when you were convinced you had been abandoned. Now you know you have been guided. Now things are coming into place. You are almost at the end of this phase, this difficult portion of the journey. The lesson is almost complete. You know – the lesson you fought, resisted, and insisted you could not learn. Yes, that one. You have almost mastered it.
You have been changed from the inside out. You have been moved to a different level, a higher level, a better level. You have been climbing a mountain. It has not been easy, but mountain climbing is never easy. Now, you are near the top. A moment longer, and the victory shall be yours. Steady your shoulders. Breathe deeply. Move forward in confidence and peace. The time is coming to relish and enjoy all which you have fought for. The time is drawing near, finally. I know you have thought before that the time was drawing near, only to learn that it wasn’t. But now, the reward is coming. You know that too. You can feel it. Your struggle has not been in vain. For every struggle on this journey, there is a climax, a resolution. Peace, joy, abundant blessings, and reward are yours here on earth. Enjoy. There will be more mountains, but now you know how to climb them. And you have learned the secret of what is at the top. Today, I will accept where I am and continue pushing forward. If I am in the midst of a learning experience, I will allow myself to continue on with the faith that the day of mastery and reward will come. Help me, God, understand that despite my best efforts to live in peaceful serenity, there are times of mountain climbing. Help me stop creating chaos and crisis, and help me meet the challenges that will move me upward and forward.
Before I came to terms with my disease, I failed at just about everything. I could not hold a job for very long, my relationships with others were erratic and very short-term, and I had little hope that life would get better. I kept making the same mistakes over and over, again. I held the world responsible for my failures, and never saw my part in my problems. I truly felt that I was somehow born defective, and I envied everyone whom I viewed as being in better shape than me. Drinking was but a symptom. I drank to escape the misery of my life, and my life was miserable because I drank. Around and around I went, never allowing myself the possibility of change. of growth, until . . . I crossed the threshold of Alcoholics Anonymous. I found what I had been searching for, all my life, right there in the first 164 pages of a “big book” entitled “Alcoholics Anonymous.” I shall be eternally grateful.
I pray that I may set aside my doubts and worries, at this time. I ask for the power to be there for my family, with the spirit of love and giving. This holiday can be wonderful for some, and it can be challenging for some. All families are not all well and wonderful. I thank God for the spirit of giving that He has bestowed upon me, that I might then contribute in some small way to another’s joy. I am grateful for my sobriety that I can be here for my loved ones. I also thank the God of my understanding for the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous, as it guides me to the Spiritual Principles, and to a maturity that benefits both myself and others. I pray that all who read this know that you are loved, and cared for deep in the hearts of others around you and that you then can give back that love to all you hold dear.