Like so many others my spiritual awakening was not the “white light” that many have experienced. It was a gradual process of change and acceptance. Going through the Steps was but a beginning. First, I had to admit my powerlessness, then I worked at believing that there was a “higher” power at work in the universe. Next it came down to trusting that faith in my Higher Power, whom I choose to call God. I let go and let God, it was just that simple. I’ve heard it expressed as “I can’t, He can, I think I’ll let Him.” I found a willingness to believe that surprised me, and those close to me. One other factor present in my recovery has been the idea that living my life one day at a time is something I can “manage.” I work to live in the now, in the present moment – otherwise I become overwhelmed with “problems” and when the pressure is on, escape is sought – and for this alcoholic that means returning to the bottle again and again. Today is a new day, a new beginning. WE can do this, IF…we choose.

Photo Courtesy of Rocky
Photo Courtesy of Rocky


4 thoughts on “Consciousness

  1. Just my experience, humbly presented.
    When I stopped thinking, at least occasionally, about why I shouldn’t or couldn’t or wouldn’t do what you suggested…and started actually doing once in a while, at least, what you did, good things began to happen.
    When I tried practicing these principles in all of my affairs, the good things began happening on a regular basis.
    I found when I did X, then Y would occur; I came to rely upon it.
    And thus faith was made manifest within me.
    I experienced a spiritual awakening as a result, not a precondition, of taking the Steps.
    Just my experience.
    Grateful for the Gift.

  2. The chapters that describe the heart of the program are How It works (not why), Into Action (not into thought), working with others. I had to act way into right-thinking. If I had waited until I was ready to do the steps I’d still be drinking.

  3. Heard it in an AA meeting ; ” I’m just an ass carrying the message”.” I’m the donkey carrying him into Jerusalem “.

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