First Days

I came to the rooms alone, ashamed, and angry. Why was my life so screwed up?   What made me so different from others? Come to find out I had more similarities with others in the rooms, than I ever knew.  It was through observing other women in the rooms that I began to have any sense of hope for myself.  I listened to their stories and thought: “Well, if they can do it, maybe I have a chance.”  Initially I found more differences than I did similarities. A woman member told me after a meeting to look for the similarities, not the differences. That changed my perspective, and I found that I related to many members, both female and male.  I recognized the insanity of alcoholism in my life.  I began to see my part in my life, and how my bad choices had brought me to where I was.  I thank the God of my understanding for leading me to the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous.  I love the Program, I love my fellow alcoholics, and I love the me that God wants me to be.


2 thoughts on “First Days

  1. Grapevine Quote

    December 10
    “God grant that AA may ever stay simple.”
    AA Co-Founder, Dr. Bob, September 1948
    “The Fundamentals in Retrospect”
    The Best of the Grapevine, Volume 2

    Sometimes I don’t post or share because at the moment I just don’t feel like I have anything worthwhile to say.
    I know that’s not the point.
    The point is I came, I saw and listened, in my sometimes halfhearted and half ass way I work the steps; I haven’t had to take a drink of liquor since January 23, 1987.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted twelve stepper.

  2. When I saw the similarities, I became part of the community- the We. That was piece of the puzzle that was missing. I had admitted for a many years that I was an alcoholic but I could not stay sober. But then finally “we admitted” sunk in and that was all the difference. and that was all the difference.

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