Eternally Grateful

Before I came to terms with my disease, I failed at just about everything. I could not hold a job for very long, my relationships with others were erratic and very short-term, and I had little hope that life would get better. I kept making the same mistakes over and over, again. I held the world responsible for my failures, and never saw my part in my problems. I truly felt that I was somehow born defective, and I envied everyone whom I viewed as being in better shape than me. Drinking was but a symptom. I drank to escape the misery of my life, and my life was miserable because I drank. Around and around I went, never allowing myself the possibility of change. of growth, until . . . I crossed the threshold of Alcoholics Anonymous. I found what I had been searching for, all my life, right there in the first 164 pages of a “big book” entitled “Alcoholics Anonymous.” I shall be eternally grateful.
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2 thoughts on “Eternally Grateful

  1. …drinking was but a symptom…of something fundamentally and structurally wrong…but until the alcohol got out of my system I could not address the underlying disease which was in the process of killing me.
    Thank you for holding me until I could find what I did not know was lost, myself.
    And, then, what to do with what I had found…
    Grateful for the Gift

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