My sobriety has to come first in my life, or nothing else will matter. I will lose all the goodness in my life. I will lose the love of my family, my granddaughter and each of you who care about me. I will lose my dignity, my faith, and all of my self-control. My trust, generosity, self-esteem, and humility would disappear in a hurry. Without my sobriety I would be lost, completely and totally. I have no doubt of this, no doubt at all. I believe I am blessed to have found the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous, and I believe it is only that fact and the restoration of my faith that has enabled me to have any sort of a life. Without it my life would be very different.