Brain Power

I was one of those who thought I could control my drinking, I believed that I was smart enough to do that.  What a blow to my ego to fail at stopping, time and again.  My addiction to alcohol had little to do with my IQ.  This took several tries before I accepted that fact.  And then there was the fact of my fellow alcoholics, many of whom were “smart.”  The diversity of the membership of any A.A. group is pretty amazing.  Some are intelligent, and some are not.  Some hold high level positions and some work at low level jobs.  The diversity goes beyond the jobs we hold, and covers all aspects of our attributes and faults.  I was a planner, and still are for that matter, I worked out a schedule for my daily routine. . . that lasted the better part of a morning, ha ha.  Now I know that was me setting myself up, one more time, for failure.  Being a failure at whatever task I was attempting was just another excuse to get drunk, again.  I know today that it was my ego that carried me through life, and it was that same ego that blocked me from my Higher Power, God.  My intelligence was both my bane and my blessing.


10 thoughts on “Brain Power

  1. I been to some meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous that close with the serenity prayer.
    All of the others close with what is called the “Our Father” or the Lord’s Prayer.
    I’ve noticed a few of us pray “and deliver us from ego”.
    Ego is the booger of expectations!

    I think that’s pretty good.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted twelve stepper.

  2. I eventually found that of myself, alone, I was pretty hopeless and powerless.
    Over just about everything, but especially manifestations of my ego and booze.
    Then you lot took me in; into your hearts and, eventually, I found myself and this new way of life.
    Grateful for the Gift

  3. Top of the morning family,
    – Can I pass on the love that has been given to me?
    – Am I placing limits on His love?
    – Am I desiring that God helps me my way?
    Today, I’m learning not to ask, “Divine Mercy, why aren’t you helping me?” But rather, “Divine Mercy, why do “I” insist on refusing to recognize/receive your help?”.

    It’s a good day for today is my 6 year birthday. 6 years ago on this day, the life I desired began….
    Much obliged / tip of the hat to my cyber This24 family, for God has placed each and every single one of you on my journey.

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