The Struggle Is Real

I still struggle with the idea of being one among many.  I think, for me, it relates to my feelings of having to excel in any endeavor, to offset my obvious flaws.  I’ve always thought of myself as being “not as good as” others.  To make up for my shortcomings and defects I have strived to do better than others around me.  I figured that if I projected the image of someone who “has it all together” that others might not then view me as “damaged goods.” I am no more and no less than anyone else, at any given time, or place – I am simply “Bonnie, alcoholic.”  I, like others, learn the joys of recovery from working the Steps, going to meetings and participating in my own sobriety.

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2 thoughts on “The Struggle Is Real

  1. Thank the Lord for this day and for all that is in it.
    My times are in His hand.
    My soul rests with Him, my Anamchara.

    I thought about poking fun at the biblical imperative that “This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice and be glad in it”.
    As I was taking a quick inventory of how I’m feeling this morning with an acute URI, scratchy throat, hoarseness, cough and recovering from acute diverticulitis plus feeling the achiness of rheumatism and suffering a slight headache I might feel more like jumping onto my pity pot.
    But on the other hand and there is always an on the other hand way of looking at things I have so much to be thankful for I can’t wallow in my ingratitude.

    Morning Has Broken, or at least it will in just a little while, just like the first morning of the first day.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic as a devoted twelve stepper.

  2. The weather is beautiful today. Low 70’s and sunny. I have all the windows open. I am even enjoying my housework. For this i am grateful. I have plenty on my “do list” but one thing at a time. We are all unique but also so much alike. Lets focus on the similarities. Not always easy to do. My prayers still go out today for Maggs and everyone on this site. G-d bless. Love, Tree

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