I still struggle with the idea of being one among many.  I think, for me, it relates to my feelings of having to excel in any endeavor, to offset my obvious flaws.  I’ve always thought of myself as being “not as good as” others.  To make up for my shortcomings and defects I have strived to do better than others around me.  I figured that if I projected the image of someone who “has it all together” that others might not then view me as “damaged goods.” I am no more and no less than anyone else, at any given time, or place – I am simply “Bonnie, alcoholic.”  I, like others, learn the joys of recovery from working the Steps, going to meetings and participating in my own sobriety.

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