Learning to forgive myself enabled me to forgive the wrongs done to me, by others.  When I took a good, hard look at my drinking life, I found that others in the Program also suffered from their behavior, and had patterns of decline that were similar to mine.  Who was I not to forgive those behaviors that I, myself, had perpetuated, when I could clearly see the similarities in the behavior of others.  Willingness became the key to forgiveness.  I became willing to recognize my own liabilities. I became willing to admit the exact nature of my wrongs.  I became willing to acknowledge my part in the mess my life had become.  It was not the fault of others, it was not the fault of  my disease – it was the combination of a lack of a spiritual belief and the willingness to do something about it. Willingness was the answer.  I simply started doing things that were the opposite of  what I used to do.  Where I had lied, I became honest in deed and word.  Where I had cheated, I worked to be generous in thought and action.  And so it went. The God of my understanding guides me and loves me.


4 thoughts on “Willingness

  1. First the lash of King Bacchus drove me into AA; then the lash of ism continued to push me forward.
    I realized I didn’t like either one of them.
    I consider both of them to be a blessing.
    In that sense I am grateful for them.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted twelve stepper.

  2. I dunno a whole lot but I do know I get to do a lot more things as a result of getting sober. This site is but one of many tools I’ve put in my box. A big shout out and thank you to all who have contributed over the years. Happy belated Easter

  3. Top of the morning family,
    Forgiveness is a golden antidote for anger/resentments.
    HarryS – top notch posting, how to tell is your drinking is normal.
    Normal drinkers don’t waste brain cells wondering if they have a drinking problem…We will always convince ourselves that we’re just over reacting….

    Willingness is proportional to my desire to my denial of the denial.
    Faith becomes stronger each time we offer our services to Divine Mercy. Faith is stretched beyond all recognition every time we offer ourselves to a friend.
    When I am of service to someone else, Divine Mercy blesses me in return.

    It’s a good day to have a good day.

  4. Grratful alcoholic. I have to hold on to my faith that G-d will provide for me. So far we have a roof on our head and food to eat. Who could ask for more. Love Tree

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