Gradually, day by day, I gained knowledge and insight into this wonderful thing called recovery.  One of the biggest factors in my coming to the Program was my absolute fear of being alone and that my disease would overtake me and next time I would not survive.  My fear was bigger than my discomfort at the meetings and I found the courage I needed to step over that threshold into the rooms of A.A.  It was a decision that I have never regretted.  I found a place where I was not only accepted but was loved until I learned to love myself.  Today I no longer wish to destroy myself with alcohol.  Instead, my days are filled with purpose and direction. Working the Steps, attending meetings, being of service – all of that and more tell me I have found my “home.”