I am thankful that God gave me enough brains that I was able to do the work for which I was hired.  But in so far as my working relationships, I never really had any, due to my fear of being “found out.”  Feelings of being inferior were “born” early in my life, and much of what I went through worked to underscore that belief.  I envied those who had the brains and opportunity to advance to jobs that paid well.  My alcoholism was also a factor.  It was easy to get jobs back then. I have found other ways of being useful, God has a purpose for me. . . stay sober and help others.