I am no longer that sad, tortured alcoholic trying to make sense of this imperfect world while under the influence of King Alcohol.  I accept life’s imperfections, I accept my imperfections, and I accept the imperfections of those around me.  I have learned to forgive myself for being fallible and impaired.  I have learned the “HOW” of A.A. which means I work towards being Honest, Open-minded, and Willing.  I work to let God lead me to the right path that I might then pass on what has been given to me so that others gain some knowledge of this terrible disease.  My gratitude is endless when I think back to those days of being lost in the vast desert of addiction not knowing what direction to take.  My life today is the easier softer way – as compared to my drinking days.  I lost control of my behavior the minute I took a drink, and I lost the ability to stop drinking the very minute I began. That’s what defined me as an alcoholic. We each have our own story and our path to the tables of A.A. This is mine.  


2 thoughts on “Me

  1. I had this wondering inside inside.

    I wondered what God’s will was for me.

    I started getting in touch with God through prayer and meditation and learning to see God in the thoughts, words and deeds of others.

    He showed me how I should treat others as I would be treated.

    I have come to love Him as he loves me.

    I’m Harry, grateful alcoholic and devoted twelve stepper.

  2. Hi readers of this 24, I am it an alcoholic, I liked the message today about the how ( honest, open and willingness.) I attended my home group step study last eve an aa program and heard testimony how it works for those that attend the meetings and one person shared how it did not work for them when they thought they had 10 years in and would be ok. I am grateful to have heard that testimony. And glad to share it today. Thank you Sister for daily writing. I have been remiss in not writing. Kt

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