I apologize for not posting the last few days. I had a car accident yesterday, but most of all I drank. It was a horrible couple of weeks but im on track with others and the program and it took me a while to come to terms with my own disease.  My lack of control has been the defining element for accepting myself as an alcoholic.  And here I am today, and many years have passed, and I am still sober, still upright, and still in service to my Program – what an amazing success story.  I know that we each arrive at the tables via our own path, while mine was long and arduous, it has been exactly the way God intended it to be.  He knew I needed to be alone to get sober, He knew that I would need A.A. and my service commitments to stay sane, and He knew that I have needed the love and guidance that He and the Program have graced me with.  I am eternally grateful for all my blessings.
Thanks again for the concern