October 19, 2014
“Surely this was the answer – self-knowledge. But it was not, for the frightful day came when I drank once more.” Page 7 – Bill’s Story.
“But the actual or potential alcoholic, with hardly an exception, will be absolutely unable to stop drinking on the basis of self-knowledge.” Page 39
These quotes have something in common – attempting to understand one’s illness is a long way from having a basic understanding about the AA Program of Action – our 12 Steps. Self knowledge is absolutely useless. But knowing how our program works is an obligation…not a “nice to have.” What are your thoughts on this…..a little change up on this MONDAY!!!
October 18, 2014
There’s only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self. So you have to begin there, not outside, not on other people. That comes afterward, when you’ve worked on your own corner.
I could not pass this quote up. Sometimes I need to follow my own advice. I sponsor some women, and recently I find that what I encourage in others is the very thing lacking in my own program. Thank goodness for the Steps as they afford me a source for growth and change, and a place to “work” from. Each Step is related to a Spiritual Principle, and each Principle is related to my behavior. Just working the first three Spiritual Principles of Honesty, Hope and Faith can change my behavior to a point of growth. Above all else I need to constantly search for my honesty within. Honesty in all things – not just pocketbook honesty, but emotional honesty, spiritual honesty, and honesty about my feelings, thoughts and actions. This is not always an easy task for me, it is something that I constantly work on.
I cannot give away what I do not possess – if I want change in my sponsees I first have to find that change in myself. Dear God please help me to achieve the changes that are needed within me, by means of the Spiritual Principles of Honesty, Hope and Faith.
October 16, 2014
I have learned to “listen” to my feelings, to pay attention to how I feel about events or things, not just what I know in my head to be “right,” but also what I know within my heart to be right for me. I was quite sure that I could “out-think” the disease of alcoholism via means of “control.” I got pretty good at fooling myself and others. Even when I finally came to the rooms of A.A., I was not sure if I was in the right place for me. After attending a few meetings I became sure that I was right where I am supposed to be. It felt good to be among others who were searching for answers, as I was. It felt right that I should be at the tables, listening and hoping for my mind to finally be still, and at rest. I wanted the peace and joy I saw in others.
To NOT drink – means working the Program one day at a time, it also may mean lots and lots of meetings, it could also mean getting a Sponsor and working the 12 Steps – which is always encouraged. Prayer comes easily for some and for others it takes time to be comfortable communicating with the God of their understanding. Prayer invites God into my life and reminds me to live by God’s will, not my will. Prayer gives me an ally to rely on, and a friend whenever I may need one. Helping others comes in time and in a variety of ways, from one on one conversations with old timers and new comers; to sponsoring others, and serving as a “trusted servant,” to ensure the continuation of the Program. Wherever my service to the Fellowship takes me, I will continue to learn, to change and to grow in my own recovery – because I have learned to listen with both my brain and my heart.
PS: GO GIANTS…sorry. I’m an AVID Giants fan….next time DOC….WORLD SERIES HERE WE COME!!!
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